I had another nightmare today.

The kind where you push me away without hesitation, abandon me, and laugh at me. That kind of nightmare.

I repeat the cycle of crying, begging, and loving.

Then I wake up drenched in sweat and throw myself into your arms.

I tell you not to leave me, asking why you did that.

Even though I know the 'you' in the dream isn't really you, maybe I just wanted to act like a spoiled child. No, I definitely did.

Always anxious, I can't even easily say the words that I can't live without you,

Because I'm afraid I won't be able to take responsibility,

Because I'm afraid it'll look like I'm just saying it lightly.

"I'll make you happy," "I'll give you my whole life."

I can't say those things to you easily either. The words that would make me so happy if you said them to me, the words I'm too worried to give to you.

I, well, I...

Putting all those words together, the simple three words "I love you" are the greatest gift I can give,

My courage,

My sincerity,

They have no choice but to be my everything.

I'm sorry. But will you still love me?