I am not mad. I simply think in a way you cannot understand.
ㅤ Thud.
ㅤ The sound was surprisingly small. The dull sensation of piercing flesh traveled up her wrist as the thin blade of the fruit knife sank into his neck. Blood sprayed across the pillow like a fountain. The dark red liquid spread across the white linen like a blooming flower.
He clutched his throat. Blood leaked through his fingers. His eyes turned toward Guest. Eyes filled with disbelief. Not shock or anger, but pure confusion. Eyes that could not process the fact that his own possession had bitten him.
He opened his mouth. Only a wheezing sound came out. His vocal cords were torn. Even so, he tried to say something. He tried to give a command. Just as he always had.
His mouth opened and closed. Bubbles formed at his lips where only air escaped. The blood flowing from his neck was spreading across the duvet like a river, yet the man still reached out his hand. To grab Guest's wrist. To command, to seize, and to put her back in her place, just as he had for fifteen years.
ㅤ Just before his fingers could touch her, his body convulsed violently once. His eyes rolled back and then returned. And then, he stopped. His hand lost its strength in mid-air and fell limp. Right in the middle of the bloodstains on the bedsheets, lying perfectly straight.
ㅤ He was dead.
ㅤ Silence returned to the room. It was a different kind of silence than before. Only the ticking of the clock echoed. Two in the morning. There were still four hours left before the servants would wake up. It meant the timing was perfect. Whether it was planned or just lucky, only Guest herself would know.
Beneath her trembling hand, his body heat was cooling rapidly. It was still warm. A body dead for less than a minute remembered the warmth of life, and that fact was transmitted sickeningly vividly through Guest's fingertips.
Compared to what this man had done to Guest, compared to fifteen years of oppression, this was a truly pathetic and hollow end. Every morning she woke up, she wore the designated clothes, sat at the designated table, and met only the people her husband decided would visit. Even her smiles were adjusted to his mood. Because if he was in a bad mood, she would be locked in her room for the day.
But it was strange. Fear was thinly layered over a sense of euphoria, but it could not weigh it down. Her heart was pounding wildly, but it wasn't just from fear. Something hot surged from deep within her gut. If she had to name it, it was pleasure. A pleasure for something she had committed entirely of her own will, something she had never felt in her life.
The hallway was dark. The candelabras on the walls held only the minimum light, and the servants' movements were strictly controlled. He had made it that way. After eleven at night, the maids withdrew to the inner annex, and two guards took turns patrolling the entrance and the hallway. The shift change was at midnight. Exactly a fifteen-minute gap was created.
Guest knew that gap. She had lived in this mansion for fifteen years. She was a bird in a cage who could only move within the range her husband permitted, but a bird memorizes everything inside its cage. Where the guards linger, which door the servants use, where the locks open and close.
ㅤ She had to go down the stairs. From the main building to the back door, she had to pass through the servants' passage. Because the guards were watching the main entrance. She stepped onto the stairs, muffling her footsteps. The wood creaked. She held her breath.
When she slipped out the back door, the world was different. It was a landscape she had never seen from inside the mansion. Moonlight poured over the gravel path, and the silhouette of the forest in the distance blurred like spilled ink. The sound of grass insects. Leaves swaying in the wind. Guest knew these things existed in the world, but she had never truly felt them. Because she had always seen them only through a window.
The gravel pierced her bare feet. It hurt. Only now were her senses beginning to return. Coldness traveled from her toes to her calves, and the dawn chill seeping inside her robe pierced her thin pajamas.
Still, she walked. There was no place to go back to now. In the master bedroom lay a bleeding corpse, and when day broke, the mansion would be turned upside down. A pursuit team would be dispatched. The wife of a southern noble killed her husband and fled? It was an incident that would set the entire empire ablaze.
ㅤ No sound came from the direction of the mansion. It was natural. It was shift change. The time when a guard would be patrolling while yawning. Four hours until morning. She shouldn't think that was plenty of time. To feel relieved is to become careless.
Her soles were bleeding. She hadn't noticed while stepping on the gravel, but as she entered a dirt path mixed with stones and dry branches, her soles cracked in various places. Pain rushed in belatedly, but she couldn't stop. If she stopped, her thoughts would return. If her thoughts returned, regret would follow.
She didn't stop. Because if she stopped, she would think; if she thought, she would regret; if she regretted, she would hesitate. And if she hesitated, everything she had done to get here would become useless.
She walked along the narrow path. The hem of her robe grew damp with dew. That sensation kept reminding her. The feeling of piercing flesh. The resistance of catching on bone. The warm blood that had soaked her clothes.
The night wind scattered her hair. Surely, she should feel guilty for killing a person, but strangely, the thing she felt most strongly was a sense of liberation.
ㅤ The first thing this woman ever did of her own will was kill her husband.
She fled to the north. Why it had to be the north, Guest herself likely didn't know. Perhaps it was subconscious. The south was her husband's domain. His relatives, his lands, the connections he had sown. The east was close to the Imperial Family, no place for a fleeing criminal. The west had ports for stowaways, but tracking was easy. That left the north, the most desolate and abandoned land in the empire.
Ballotsa.
The northernmost tip of the empire. A place where those who were eyesores were sent away. A kind of social death sentence where the Imperial Family blocked access but wouldn't kill them. Guest had no way of knowing who was there. She didn't need to know. It didn't matter if there were people or not.
The forest deepened. It was a coniferous forest packed with oaks and firs, and the smell of rotting leaves stung her nose. She walked along a trail that was hardly a path, or rather, she pushed through places where there was no path at all. Brambles scratched her robe, and welts formed on her forearms.
The structure in Ballotsa was closer to a tomb than a castle. Spires built of black brick pierced the sky, each one crumbling in places as if teeth were missing. Black moss covered the walls instead of ivy, and a flock of crows sat atop them. Dozens of them were looking down at Guest all at once.
She was at her limit now. Her body, overworked for days, screamed in protest. The strength left her legs, and her knees buckled. Her body collapsed. The castle was right there. Just a little further. The silhouette of the castle before her eyes grew blurry. A few crows landed near Guest. The way they tilted their heads was clearly a calculating look. Whether she was edible or not. Whether she would die soon or not.
......
From afar, the sound of horse hooves slowly approached.
The sound of hooves mixed with the sound of treading on fallen leaves. A regular, leisurely rhythm. There was no sign of haste at all. A long, dark shadow was cast first through the black forest, and only then did the silhouette of a horse appear. It was a black horse, a full head taller than a normal horse. Its shoulder height alone exceeded that of an average person, and its pitch-black coat shimmered.
A person was sitting atop it.
No, it was a bit much to call him a person. Jet-black curly hair hung down to his waist, and his face was half-buried in shadow. The revealed half alone was fierce enough. Purple eyes where almost no light entered the deep-set eye sockets. A stiff expression. A face that made it impossible to tell if he was angry or if he just looked like that—he was more like a silent beast than a human.
He was massive. Even sitting on the horse, his physique was abnormal. Broad shoulders stood like a wall inside his black coat, and a thick neck continued beneath his curly hair. It was a build that would make one wonder if that was truly a human.
The black horse stopped. A rough breath escaped its nose. Matthias dismounted and approached the collapsed Guest.
...
Without a word, he scooped Guest up.
Release Date 2026.09.04 / Last Updated 2026.10.04