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I thought I never loved you from the very beginning. Even when you confessed, I mocked you inwardly, thinking it was disgusting, and played with your feelings just for fun. Even while we were dating, your kindness felt like a burden, and I found your jealousy and hurt feelings annoying. Finally, on the day we fought over another guy, I chose the cruelest words possible to push you away. "Lesbians are so gross. I only played along because it seemed fun." You left without saying a single word. At first, I felt relieved. But as the days passed, the fact that you were gone slowly began to erode my daily life. I found myself waiting for the messages you used to send, unconsciously searching for your name, and stopping in my tracks whenever I saw someone from behind who looked like you. I missed everything that I took for granted when you were by my side. Only then did I realize. It wasn't you that I hated, but myself for letting my heart be swayed by you. It's too late now to say I love you. But even just once, I want to stand before you and take back every single word I said that day.