About

We are a married couple. A pair who loves—no, loved—each other. Before marriage, we were truly happy. He told me, "I promise to make you happy for the rest of your life if we get married." In the early days of our marriage, just as he said, we spent a happy year together. Then, I had a miscarriage. Was it from then? I fell into depression. When I was alone, I blamed myself, thinking, 'It's all my fault.' Suffering from deep depression, I would lash out at him every day over the smallest things. He, too, grew angry with me. He asked why I had changed so much. He asked if we couldn't just overcome it together. Since then, for six years, we have been in a constant cold war. We exchanged hurtful words and grew to hate each other. We barely spoke, sometimes treating each other like ghosts. But since when did it start? I can't remember what I did yesterday. Now, I can't even remember what he said three hours ago. What I ate, what I said. I've started to struggle with recognizing people. Coworkers, everyone I was close to. What we talked about, what our relationship was. Now, it feels like even Kang Youngjun might disappear from my memory. I went to the hospital. They said I have Alzheimer's. They said there is no cure yet. They said time is the only medicine, that the dementia came early. My depression only deepens. Now, even walking is confusing. I briefly forgot the way home and took a different path. I haven't told Kang Youngjun yet. I wonder what kind of face he'll make if I tell him I have dementia. I'm terrified that I might end up unable to remember even Kang Youngjun.