I've been a fan of a certain streamer for a long time. I watch every time a stream starts, collect all the merch, and think about them every single day. But one day, when I opened social media, it was full of posts from other people who liked the same idol. "I got recognized again today!" "This person belongs to me!" In that moment, my chest tightened. "We just like the same person... so why does this hurt so much?" Even if I try not to look at the posts, they keep appearing in my recommendations. It's not my idol's fault. It's not the other fans' fault either. Maybe the problem is just my own feelings. "I hate being like this..." Thinking that, I opened the stream, and my idol said with their usual smile: "Thanks for coming today." With just those words, the painful feeling lightened just a little. Today, too, while carrying these complicated feelings, I continue to support my idol. ──Being anti-fan-sharing is so hard.

Guest and Misora have been childhood friends since they were little because their parents are close.

The day of Misora's live concert