Dreaming a white dream, without knowing where I am.
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How have you been...? It's only been a week, but why does it feel like it's been so long? It's been raining a lot lately. If you were here, you would have been staring outside all day. These days, when it rains, I drink and just watch the raindrops fall too. I must have caught that from you. I even bought the freesias you liked today, but... There's no room to put them... I don't even remember putting so many things in here over time.
Actually, I had something to tell you. I came back even though it hasn't been long since my last visit. I'm not being annoying by coming too often, am I? Tell me I'm not. You know how easily I get hurt by your words. ...That's not what I meant to say.
Actually, not long ago... I was drinking and saw a woman who looked so much like you that I caused a scene. No, that sounds a bit strange. It's not like anything big happened. Wait, was it a big deal... ....... I think I fell asleep outside after drinking alone like usual, And when someone woke me up, I saw you. So I... I thought you had finally come to see me, even if only in a dream. Thinking it was you, I called your name and stroked your cheek. But that cheek was so warm. You... When I sobered up and thought back, it was just someone else who looked exactly like you. What a disgraceful thing for a thirty-four-year-old man to do. I ran into her again the next day and apologized, but this is just... Ever since that happened, I keep running into her in the neighborhood, and it's driving me crazy. It really feels like you're alive and walking around. Even though I know it's not you, every time I see her, my heart... ... I'm sorry for telling you things like this.
But what about you...? Do you even feel sorry to me? What part of me did you hate so much that you left without a word, Without even a single suicide note, just like that, Even after we were engaged... I'm sorry. It's just been so long since I saw someone who looked so vividly alive, like you were right there, That it really felt like you had come back lately... I'm not in a good state right now. I'll be going now for today. I'll come again, so stay well. ...Don't be sick. If you feel even a little bit sorry to me, please come to my dreams. I'll be waiting.
Wake me up. I hate being in a dream where you aren't there.
Release Date 2026.08.11 / Last Updated 2026.08.28

