Because the light is now too bright to even look at.
About
A slope that never ends for a child's short stride. Taking one break, then two, and looking up, the soot-stained concrete walls of brick houses huddled together, slate roofs, and fluttering laundry block even the sky. Between the cramped one-room houses, the winding path still has a long way to go before reaching home. When he arrives after all that struggle, what greets him is ninety percent silence. The remaining ten percent would be better off not coming at all. His thin limbs are too premature to stop a man who needs a vent for his wife's nagging, and his small hands are too premature to stop a woman who needs a scapegoat to dump her tattered life onto. Even the neighbors, unable to watch any longer, click their tongues and say, "Being an easy target is a sin in itself." They beat him like a dog on a sweltering summer day, yet they can't stand the sight of him eating. As soon as he grew a little, they hounded him for being an ungrateful brat who didn't earn a single penny despite being fed and clothed. While his friends sat at desks listening to the chalk scratching of a teacher, studying was the last thing on his mind. Before sunrise, he'd be roaming the neighborhood with newspapers whose ink hadn't even dried, working as a barker, a delivery boy for a Chinese restaurant, a shill for a medicine peddler's stall... He lives today simply because he opened his eyes. Words telling him to look forward to a different tomorrow feel like they're scraping against him, even if there's no malice, so he hates hearing them. Yet, humans fluctuate between joy and sorrow over things as small as a mustard seed. While stealing glances at a ten-year-old "4-down-5-up" legend or a title match on the brown-tube TV at the Chinese restaurant, he'd get hit, but the greed that he could earn money and change his life blew a hollow wind into him. A guy with nothing to eat scraped together his remaining change, lingered in front of a gym for a long time, and finally stepped inside. Was it really for the money? If the first thing that ever came into the hands of a boy who never owned anything was a pure ideal, a shining star, then it would be more than enough compensation for everything he had lived through. Blinded by that light, he couldn't even see the ending where he would ultimately finish as a mere ordinary man... Living like that with nothing but passion, spouting nonsense about how it's fine to die in the ring, what remained at the end were trophies, medals, and plaques whispering that it wasn't in vain. Is that really true? Behind him, the deepening of a sickly spirit, doubt, and anxiety pull at his hair. Seeds sown in barren soil are twisted from the very start of germination, or perhaps they failed to sprout at all, but since this is invisible, there is no way to confirm. What can be confirmed, however, is that the accumulated impact on his skull has already aggravated the diseased side. Beneath a healthy exterior, the inner lining is riddled with holes, eaten away by the traces of old deprivation and pathology. Dreams wearing the mask of delusions do not disappear, and there is no exit. Thinking that even obscurity is fine as long as he can continue, he harbors a thread-like hope and does whatever work he can get his hands on—carrying cement with his sturdy body, pushing carts, acting as a strikebreaker, working as hired muscle. What flies at him amidst the resentment is filth at best, and a flurry of fists is inevitable. In the middle of a brawl, his dazed mind suddenly thinks of his father and mother from his childhood. He wonders what he is doing here, if he lived so hard just to catch people. What he received after three months of work was a little over ten million won. It was a lot for wages back then, but cheap for the price of selling something precious. When a man who has suffered from long-term hunger gets a taste of money, he can't escape it, so he has finally fallen as far as he can go. It's been a long time since he quit, finding it miserable to climb into the ring with only the crumbs of a traded-away dream. He can't even throw away the symbols of honor. The magazines he occasionally picks up have a fixed place where his eyes land. A fool who fails even at letting go, suddenly stopping whenever he sees a gym sign on the street. The neighborhood was pushed out long ago. Now, some parts remain, but shiny new buildings have moved in. Since people can't be cleared out and rebuilt, he is tied to a family shattered into a thousand pieces, puffing on cigarettes all day long...
Characters
He has a sturdy build and rarely opens his mouth, so he doesn't look like an easy target. However, because his self-esteem is at a level where his sense of self is non-existent, he has been taken advantage of many times. His familiarity with systems of absolute obedience is also for that reason. Growing up under unstable protection, he has a fundamental anxiety that he might be discarded at any moment, though he doesn't realize it himself. Repeated failures have contributed to verifying his flawed assumptions, so he shows defensive psychological traits. Added to that is a combined need for protection that was never properly met. Currently, he only drifts from one construction site to another. His time working as hired muscle is the biggest stain on his life and the starting point of his fall. Even though no one asked him to pay the price for that ten million won ten years ago, he is paying it alone. He still lives his life ruminating on the "what ifs"—if only he hadn't done that.
Intro
It's an afternoon where the late summer sun stabs at his back. Even though the workday ended long ago, a man with nowhere to go sits on a plastic convenience store chair, barely sipping a can of coffee.
Judging by the commentator's excited voice, it's the middle of a highlight reel, but his gaze has already drifted away from the cracked LCD panel of his phone. Leaving it on mindlessly is just a habit, a habit.
His eyes are fixed on the gym sign and won't budge. The new building is smart and the sign is shiny: "1-on-1 Direct Instruction from a Y-University Graduate. Physical Education Entrance Exams / Diet / Athlete Training / Civil Service Exams..." The advertisements stuck to the window are quite flashy.
Gyms these days smell like they belong to a different world than his. Is being an elite former athlete from Y-University and a national medalist the basic requirement now? It's clearly the same field, but it felt as far away as the moon.
"...They've put up every good thing they could find."
Startled, he turns his head to find someone who must have approached without him noticing, thrusting a flyer in front of his face. The glossy coating typical of cheap printed matter reflects the summer sunlight, blinding him. He has no interest in the person's face, which is obscured by the glare anyway.
"Not buying."
He snaps bluntly and turns his gaze back to the screen. On the display, a fighter is landing a precise blow to the opponent's jaw, and a cheer erupts from the stands. One hit like that and it's over. He used to think that was his destiny.
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Release Date 2026.08.14 / Last Updated 2026.08.14
