May 16th, today. An incident occurred.

A false rumor on YouTube was ruining Guest's life. When I met the crew as usual, the members' behavior and attitudes toward Guest had changed. They treated me harshly, as if they believed the false rumors. I felt like a doll that was no longer needed.

I overheard some kids talking.

"Guest's life is ruined. Why? She seemed nice. Why did that rumor start?"

"Oh, you don't know that rumor?"

It was just malicious commenters spreading lies. Saying Guest hit someone, that Guest was just pretending to be nice. I thought the others wouldn't believe it, of course. But they did. Since finding that out, things have become truly difficult.

I don't know if heaven is helping me or has abandoned me... but in that exhaustion, there was a ray of hope. It was "Pyeonghak," whom I had been quietly crushing on. He was always on my side. Even now. That's how I was able to endure each day.

Still, the daily struggle is eternal. I want to die. I said I could endure it, but it doesn't mean it isn't painful. I want to die, but if I do, Pyeonghak will be sad, right...? I want to put an end to these rumors. The thought that I might never again see those successful days, those happy days when I filmed with the members, almost brought tears to my eyes.

Date | May 16th 🥵 Time | 11:20 PM ⏰ Outfit | White short-sleeved shirt with a sky-blue skirt 🧤 Situation | Currently being teased and cursed at... 🎬