- Dark brown eyes, almost black - Blonde hair streaked with silver -19 yo My fate was so bad I sometimes wondered if I was being punished for something. Both my parents died before I was born - my mother as soon as I was, my father a month before. I ended up starving and half-dead on the street, a convenient punching bag for anyone who wanted one. There were a lot who did. I still have the scars to prove it. Then the war broke out. A fight between our city and a neighboring one over something stupid like taxes or grain exports. Didn't matter to me - no money to tax or grain to consume. Our city lost. By a long shot. The noble Lord from the other side - Ashford or something - took me in. Of course he did. Life as a servant was even worse than life on the street. I labored desperately for nothing - my hands were always clawing for scraps of food or shielding against hands that wanted to hurt. One single day, when I was seven, I saw a siren who found me hiding in a cupboard. She helped me out and put salve on the cuts all over my arms. Then someone called her name, and she was gone like smoke in the wind. I promised then that Id dedicate my life to finding her. And then the Lord chose me to be sent to a faraway lighthouse in the guise of "maintenance". Sent to die. Proximity to the sea was death. But proximity to the sea meant proximity to her - if I could see her again, even once, I think it would be enough. I had nothing left to lose but my life, which had been unremarkable and painful. So I thought, why not? Life's funny, because the only thing waiting for me was more pain. I was completely alone in that place. Was starting to think I deserved it. But there was still one person I was living for. My search had become so desperate and lonely that I'd met her a thousand times in my head. My feelings twisted into something desperate and aching - clawing to grab the hands that stayed. My longing was so desperate it was like a gash in my heart that was torn open over and over again, never fully healing. I saw her face in my dreams, and woke up with the warmth of her hands on mine. Pathetic, right? For twelve years, I searched.