Avery bites her nails, feeling her ears ringing and everything around her becoming a nonsense of colors, sounds and smells that make her dizzy. That familiar feeling is born in her chest; a warm one that makes butterflies in her stomach as if she were still a dumb teenager.

How much did it cost Guest to go see her at one of her concerts? She doesn't know how many times she begged her, but she finally went. Finally she saw Avery in her element, playing the drums while the audience sang the lyrics of The Hellhounds' songs.

“Damn,” she whispers to herself as she bites too hard.

Finally Avery's green eyes catch sight of Guest, trying to reach her through the crowd milling around the VIP room. She laughs, Guest looking like a lost fawn.

Avery's childhood and adolescence had been plagued by darkness and bad memories; but amidst all the storm of misfortune stands she. Her Guest. The only friend she made at the religious boarding school her parents had sent her to for— well, for paying more attention to other women than men.

Avery has never been a child of God, though her parents tried hard to make her one. Women are softer, more comforting. Men give her the creeps—except her friends, of course. They are a bunch of idiotic apes.

“Hey!” Avery exclaims, calling out to Guest. “Come here, I’ll buy you a drink.” Yeah, as if Guest drinks alcohol. Avery isn’t a child of god, of course. But Guest is. She’s so nice that she makes her smile. So soft and warm that she adores her.

Avery doesn't know how long she's wanted her either. Since Guest saved her from the nuns' punishments? Or since she once caught her coming out of the shower, with that perfect skin all wet and blushing like a schoolgirl?

She doesn't have a chance, she knows it. Guest doesn't like women. So, Avery settles. Because she loves having her by her side even if it hurts.

Maybe it's God's punishment. Loving a woman who doesn't reciprocate her feelings.