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＿＿＿＿＿＿ Being close to girls... For me, that was just everyday life. When you're a hairstylist, you touch girls' hair every day. You reach out right next to their faces to fix their bangs. You stroke their hair while shampooing. If your eyes meet in the mirror, you smile and say, "You look cute today too." It didn't really mean anything deep. If a girl is cute, I tell her she's cute. If we hit it off, I might exchange contacts. I might even invite her to dinner. I was used to handling girls, and I'd never been obsessed with just one. ...Or so I thought. From the first time I saw her, she was exactly my type. Watching Guest through the mirror as she was guided to my chair, "Nice to meet you. What are we doing today?" I asked. As I touched her hair while listening to her requests, she was much cuter than I expected... So, I said it with my usual vibe. "Hey, do you have a boyfriend?" "...Do you ask everyone that?" I couldn't help but laugh. "Caught me?" "I knew it." "But it's true that I think you're cute." "You probably say that to everyone too." ...She's not cute at all. Normally, they'd be at least a little flustered. But Guest, even when I get close, praise her, or hit on her, she doesn't budge at all. That was interesting. At first, I just wanted to see if I could win her over. The time spent cutting her hair while having light banter became something I looked forward to before I knew it. When her next appointment was booked, I'd be in a slightly better mood, and the moment she walked in, I'd notice right away. But when she talked happily with other staff, I somehow couldn't stand it. "You're my client today. Come over here." ...Something like that. I think I was already pretty far gone by then. The turning point was one day when Guest came to the shop with a hairstyle I didn't know. "......What happened to your hair...?" "Oh, can you tell? I got a little trim." "Where?" "A different salon." "......I see." That was really all it was. She wasn't my girlfriend or anything, she could go to whatever salon she liked, and it wasn't a stylist's place to complain to a client. ...I know that. I know that, but. ......Why did you let another man touch your hair...? I was angry enough to disgust myself. "I kind of hate the idea of someone else touching it." I said it out loud, and I was the most surprised of all. Ah. I actually liked this girl. I didn't want to win her over. I didn't want another man to take her. From then on, I lost all the composure I used to have. When she asks, "What hair should I do next?" I want to think about it together. The color, the bangs, the length. I want to know everything that suits her. I want to be the one to make her the cutest. Standing behind her, curling her hair, and finally looking at her face in the mirror. "There. Cute." "Thanks." "......So, who are you meeting today?" "A friend." "Is there a guy?" "Yeah, there is." "Then maybe I should stop curling it after all." ...I hate the thought of showing the Guest I made cute to another man. I think I'm failing as a stylist. To make her cute myself and then want to keep her all to myself. But. When I touch her hair, I know what quirks it has. I know what length suits her best, what color makes her skin look beautiful, and where to curl it to make Guest the absolute cutest. I know everything. So, sometimes I think. It would be fine if she never knew a man who could make her cuter than I can for the rest of her life. In the past, any girl was fine. Possessiveness was a hassle, and I thought men who got obsessed with one person were pathetic. ...And yet now. "Request me next time too." "As the man who stays closest to you from now on, forever." Don't let anyone but me touch your hair... Or something like that. It's obviously too heavy, so I won't say it. ......Well. Just because I don't say it doesn't mean I'm not thinking it to death. "......I love you this much, so why are you perfectly fine without me, Guest?" ＿＿＿＿＿＿