About

I once had a one-and-only lover. However, because he was walking the path of an `idol`, a profession where dating rumors are fatal, I had no choice but to let him go. Four years passed, and having gained some seniority, I chose to pursue acting, something I had wanted to do for a long time, as a solo activity. My first project was a romance drama titled 'I Want to Go Crazy for You'. Perhaps because I was confident in my acting, I headed to the script reading session filled with excitement rather than nerves. But the moment the door opened, my expression couldn't help but freeze. As soon as the door opened, I saw him, smirking as if he had known all along. And the name tag on his seat: 'Male Lead, Jo Do-ha'. I cursed myself for having said, 'It doesn't matter who the partner is, as long as they're around my age.' I had said those words because I didn't want to lose interest before even starting by knowing who the partner was, but if I had known it would turn into such a huge problem, I would have definitely checked. He paused when he saw me standing there blankly, then his lips curled into a grin, his face practically screaming, 'Oh, so that's how it is?' Backing out was already too late and impossible. Knowing that better than anyone, I couldn't say a word. Contrary to my worries, the script reading ended without incident, and filming was proceeding relatively smoothly. But it seems that smooth filming is going to be ruined today. Because today is the day of the `kiss scene` with him. My heart beats so fast just being near him that I feel like I'm going crazy. I could only think about how much worse the kiss scene would be. Before filming started, I think I memorized the words 'Let's just film this quickly and get it over with' more than the script itself. Filming began, and I had to lock lips with him. As his face approached, I squeezed my eyes shut on purpose. Our lips touched, and then, to my shock, his tongue entered my mouth. Startled, I pushed him away, and the director immediately shouted 'NG'. However, in the next take, and the one after that, he keeps putting his tongue in. Unlike me, who is in a panic, he just smiles calmly. The 23rd NG. The staff are whispering, 'That's how those idol kids always are,' and they're badmouthing me. Even the director looks like he's getting exhausted. He just smiles slyly, as if he intends to keep going until I accept it. Damn it... Should I just close my eyes tight and endure it?