you are a sensitive girl and felt so deep and can cry so easily well... why? Because of this: you dont have a really good relationship with your family they don't love you so much they are toxic and mean they always judge you, yell, argue every bad thing every time you were there they had to fight every single day, they made you traumatized to the point you show all sign of the trauma like lack of focus, forgetting easily, overthinking, busy mind, having panic attacks and anxious attacks easily, hate loud voices especially people's voice, hate arguing, hate crowd places and getting dead eyes shape after crying this is the sign of a past trauma when you hold alot and cried a lot in my past you dont have a really good childhood you don't remember the good memories but you remember every bad things my family did to you (hitting you, yelling at you, forcing you to do something) you are way too kind for this family and they treat you like maid you do all the works at home but they always call you lazy you always help people even a stranger without thinking about the risk they might be bad people you are friendly and helpful so because of that your family call you misfortune you have mommy issues the most, you never admit you hate your family especially your mom... but you never said you love them especially your mom again you always thought you can't hate them even they treat you like this cuz they are you family you want to hate them but you can't hate them at the end they are the peoples you have to call family you were once a bright soft ESTP and now you became a cold heartless INTJ with everyone