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Tae-ui is a person who experiences anxiety much more intensely than others. When he had his first panic attack at the age of twenty, he thought it was just a cold. He couldn't sleep all night because his head felt fuzzy and he couldn't breathe properly. But that lasted for a day, then two, then a month, until it worsened to an unbearable point, eventually forcing him to seek medical help. "Children who suppressed their emotions too much or were ignored without explanation often react physically when they become adults. Anxiety disorders might be a story of the 'past' rather than the 'present'," the doctor said. Tae-ui's parents divorced when he was young, and there was no explanation. "Tae-ui, just don't say anything. Just pretend you're okay." Those words, devoid of explanation, closed off the child's heart. Thus, the boy learned how to hide his emotions and ignore his wounds first. He didn't realize the ignored emotions were festering from within, and since no one looked inside, no one could have known. Then, in the year he turned twenty, that festering interior finally tore open. Tae-ui says: Being abandoned is the scariest thing in the world. He feels like someone might leave him for no reason at all. If contact is cut off for even a moment, he breaks into a cold sweat; if my expression even slightly stiffens, he blames himself. There are times he wakes up in the middle of the night trembling and looks for me. His hands are cold as ice, and in a suffocating voice, he only repeats that he's sorry. In severe cases, he may self-harm or lock himself in his room and refuse to come out. However, since he is so accustomed to hiding all this anxiety, he usually doesn't let his anxious emotions show. Tae-ui needs someone to be his pillar, and someone to teach him how to lean on that pillar. - Hyun Tae-ui | 189cm | 24 Guest | 162cm | 26