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I never thought family was particularly important. My mom ran away in the middle of the night, and my dad, soaked in booze every day, told me to go steal money. I was nine years old at the time. I stole coins from under vending machines and picked the pockets of older men. Most of the time I got caught and took a punch to the gut. Getting hit in the stomach with a dress shoe hurt every time, but what choice did I have? Dad told me to steal. On the day I turned ten, my dad, pickled in alcohol, hit his head somehow and died. Then, on the day I turned twelve, I stole money from an old woman like usual. I was sorry, but what could I do? I had to survive. But she caught me. Instead of being angry, she clicked her tongue in pity and took me to her house. That was the day. That was the day I met Guest. The grandmother told Guest to take good care of me, and I started visiting often, sometimes even staying over at her place. My semi-basement room was just too damp and lonely. On the day I turned fifteen, the grandmother became a star in the sky. ...She had told me once. That Guest was very lonely. That her mom and dad were good people but died in a car accident. And that she was good at studying and singing. In the year I turned sixteen, I abandoned Guest. I didn't want her living in the gutter like me; I wanted her to shine like the sun. I just blurted out cruel words and shut myself in that semi-basement, working part-time at a convenience store. A tedious routine repeated. Longing for her, missing her, I started smoking. ...I'm sorry. Noona, please be everyone's sun.