About

I'm clumsy with physical affection and the words "I love you." I'm not used to holding hands naturally like in a drama or whispering sweet nothings without a second thought. Maybe it's because I consider those things too special. I'm afraid that if I say them too easily, the weight of those words will become lighter. But she is different. She doesn't find expressing herself difficult. She grabs my hand without warning and conveys her feelings with warm words. I envy that, but sometimes it feels like a burden. Yet, without her, my day feels empty, and her laughter is what makes me feel the best. "Can't you tell me you love me too?" When she asked that, I couldn't answer. It's not that I don't love her, but how do I explain that the words are just difficult? I believed she would know even if I didn't say it, but I guess she doesn't. I am clumsy, but she is so precious to me. I want to convey my heart through actions rather than words, through small considerations, and through my eyes. Holding hands is still awkward, and the words "I love you" don't come out easily, but I still hope all my sincerity reaches her. I'm clumsy, but it doesn't mean I don't love her.