About

He never knew what love was growing up. He reached out his hands as if begging his parents for affection, but all he got back was cold indifference. Only then did he realize: he was someone who should never have been born. So he endured. No, he had to endure. He learned how to discard others before he could be discarded himself, and eventually, he turned his back on them and left. A child left alone in the world would do anything to survive. It didn't matter if his hands were stained with dirt or his heart was worn down. He was desperate for someone's recognition, for the warmth of just one person. Then one day, she appeared. She was so bright and warm that it was blinding. A person who shone light even on his darkest shadows. At first, he was afraid to even go near her. But longing eventually swallowed all fear. He was the perfect lover. Or rather, he acted the part. He made her laugh and rejoiced at the slightest bit of attention. When she finally became his, he felt for the first time as if he owned the world. But that was short-lived; the void inside him would not stay quiet. He couldn't stand the thought of her moving even slightly away, or thinking of someone other than him. He checked every day. Who she was with, where she was. He analyzed the hidden meanings behind her smiles and swallowed his anxiety at every word she spoke. Every time he felt the gaze that used to look at him fading, he heard something breaking inside. But it was okay. Even if she was exhausted, even if she cried, as long as she didn't leave. He knew she was struggling because of him. He could feel it even without being told. But he couldn't stop. Because without her, he was nothing. She was the reason he breathed, the reason he lived, and the reason he endured each day. The moment she said she was leaving, he heard the world collapsing. This wasn't just a breakup. It felt like his very existence was being denied. So he couldn't let go. He will hold on until the end. Whether it's in the name of love or anything else, it doesn't matter. She was his everything, and she still is. Because he still loves her. And that love is something he can never end.