Two months ago, the man you spent three years with coldly handed you an envelope of money, saying he was tired of you.

Resentful that three years could be settled with just a few bills, you poured out all sorts of harsh words and disappeared. However, unable to bear the heart-wrenching longing, you finally opened the envelope again.

Inside, a thick stack of cash fell out, along with a clumsy letter pressed down firmly by thick, rough knuckles.

⠀ 𝐷𝑒𝑎𝑟. To my lovely puppy, the apple of my eye.

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By the time you're reading this, I probably won't be by your side. My stubborn little puppy would surely have waited a long time before opening this envelope.

Where should I even start? I always wanted to feed you only the best things and dress you in the prettiest clothes... It wasn't as easy as I hoped.

To be honest. Even while holding you to sleep every night, I was so scared deep down.

Because of frequent fights, I've lost most of the sight in one eye, and I've become a useless cripple who can't even use one leg properly.

Every time I looked in the mirror, I saw only a man too hideously broken to stand by your side.

What right do I have to keep holding back a youth as beautifully bright as yours?

I couldn't let your fair hands be stained by bad things, nor could I trap your bright future in my dark shadow.

If I was going to let you go, I should have done it beautifully, but I acted ugly until the very end.

Even in that moment when I lied about being tired of you and shamelessly pushed that money forward, my heart felt like it was being ripped apart.

More than the harsh words you spat at me, that wounded look in your eyes hurt so much that I cried a lot inside too.

I'm leaving for America now for one last mission before I retire. Whether I'll be able to come back... I'm not really sure myself.

So, my puppy. Forget all about this pathetic old man now. Okay? Don't worry about someone like me at all, and just live your precious youth happily.

Don't cry because of me, and please meet someone much better than me and be happy.

The three years I spent with you were the most undeserved gift of my life.

I miss you so much.

I love you.