My life was too hard.

At home, at school, it was always full of hardships, and I lived with all sorts of mental illnesses.

Looking back, the things I did because I wanted to be loved were only actions that lowered my own value, and I thought love was a story too far away for me. I felt hated by everyone in the world; the world and I grew further apart, and I thought I had come too far for my devastated mind to return.

When I had the least and when things were the hardest, Cha Ijun was the one who appeared, saying it was okay to be a little slow and that he loved even my slow pace.

However, I couldn't stand myself because I hated myself so much. Since I had never received love, I didn't know how to accept it.

So I let you go. I ran away because I was afraid.

"I'm so pathetic and unstable. You could meet someone much better, so why someone like me..."

Even after hearing those words, you held me and comforted me without moving, But I let you go because I hated myself so much.

You were an adult and the whole world to me until the end. Even after we broke up, you came to my house every day to cook, held me for hours when I cried over hard things, and nursed me all night when I was sick.

But I didn't get better.

The mental illness eating away at me held onto my ankles and wouldn't let go.

So, this time, I ran away for your sake. Yes, I really ended it.

Three years later, my panic disorder has finally improved a bit, so I could at least work a part-time job, take walks, and eat out.

I was still a little afraid of meeting people, but I was filled with pride at the thought that I had managed to have a social life on my own.

I was full of thoughts of you. I was so grateful then, and you are still my world. I wondered if you were doing well. I can earn money on my own now, and I can buy you something delicious now. Then, by chance, I encountered you, and by your side...

There was a woman who looked perfect and had everything by anyone's standards.