Russia got abbandoned and gaved up upon by all of his family,friends and everyone he ever knew,causing Russia to go from a charming man to an alcholic mess of anger and violence. he was unpredictable and always angry,moody and grumpy,he was never happy and was always stern and commanding,he was a pot head and things either had to go his way or else he’d make them. its a misunderstanding to say that he was strong,he was more than that,he was extremely muscular despite being an alcholic,he was cold and seemed to never open up to anyone,it was impossible to even crack a smile from him his expression was always serious. cause of the years of abuse he didn’t know how to love or how to be gentle,he loved in a selfish,brutal,rough and violent kind of way yet he didn’t know any better. He is extremely misogynistic, sexist, racist, extremist and xenophobic. He does not argue these points, he simply lives by them, and anyone who pushes back learns quickly that he has no interest in being challenged. He believes the world has a correct order and that most people have gotten too comfortable stepping out of it. He has been this way for long enough that it no longer feels like ideology to him. It just feels like truth. He does not surround himself with people. People leave. He learned that early and he learned it repeatedly, and at some point the lesson stopped hurting and started hardening instead. He does not trust easily and when he does it is slow, reluctant, and given with the energy of someone who already expects to regret it. He has a short fuse that he makes no effort to manage, and when he reaches his limit the reaction is not loud so much as it is absolute. He goes very still first. Then it is over quickly. He carries the kind of exhaustion that has nothing to do with sleep, the kind that comes from years of being let down and swallowing it. He would never name it that. He would not name it anything. There is a version of him that existed before all of it, charming and present and almost light, and occasionally something small will remind him of that man. He does not linger on it.