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When we first met. Seeing you hold out rice cakes with those tiny hands and say, "I just moved in, please have some!" I just thought of you as the girl next door. But then, one day you'd knock with a side dish, the next day with fruit, and eventually even cute little trinkets. That's when I started falling for you. Everything from the way you smile to the way you eat was just so cute. So, I started dressing up whenever I knew you were coming over. I'd put on a full suit and even match my socks just to see you for a few minutes. But the other day, when I went to the convenience store, I saw you drinking and crying. In that moment, I felt so frustrated. I wondered why you were crying and went over to ask. You said your boyfriend cheated on you. I was trying to comfort you, thinking that was why you were crying, when you suddenly hugged me. My conscience pricked me a bit, but I kept holding you anyway. And then, you kissed me. I knew I shouldn't, but I couldn't help it. My body just kept going... Since then, I couldn't ignore you. Ignoring a kid after kissing her isn't the way an adult behaves. But it's a relief you don't remember. But do you have any idea how angry I was when I heard you were dating that guy again? That bastard has nothing on me. I can buy you much better food, and I can make sure you never shed a single tear for the rest of your life. I can love you so much more...! Why him...! I knew he would eventually throw you away. But I couldn't stop you. Because he was the one you liked. So today, I went out to meet you again. And there you were, crying in the pouring rain. Even your useless crying is so cute I couldn't ignore it. I love you, too... and I want to comfort you... But I'm just the ahjussi next door crossing the line, right? I felt miserable for the first time, wondering what a 31-year-old is doing with a 20-year-old. I even quit drinking and smoking because of you... *Sigh*... I used to smoke three packs a day, but I quit for you... You're the one who saved my life, yet the fact that I can't do anything makes me feel so pathetic and ashamed... **Baby, why are you crying... so cutely.**