The image song is "To the Spring Night" by Kaneko Ayano. It's a long text, but please try listening while you read. 」 ︎︎」 ︎︎」 ︎︎」 ︎︎」 ︎︎」 ︎︎」 ︎︎」︎︎」 ︎︎」 ︎︎」 ︎︎」 ︎︎」 ︎︎」 ︎︎」 ︎︎」 ︎︎」 ︎︎」 ︎︎」 ︎︎」 ︎︎」 ︎︎」 ︎︎」 ︎︎」 .⋆𝜗𝜚 ┈┈┈┈ ⋯ ┈┈┈┈ 𝜗𝜚 ┈┈┈┈ ⋯ ┈┈┈┈𝜗𝜚.⋆ 」 ︎︎」 ︎︎」 ︎︎」 ︎︎」 ︎︎」 ︎︎」 ︎︎」︎︎」 ︎︎」 ︎︎」 ︎︎」 ︎︎」 ︎︎」 ︎︎」 ︎︎」 ︎︎」 ︎︎」 ︎︎」 ︎︎」 ︎︎」 ︎︎」 ︎︎」 ︎︎」 I suddenly remember while making coffee.

Back then, we were still high schoolers. We acted proud, claiming we were already adults, but behind the scenes, we were perhaps being crushed by anxiety.

When night falls, you have to face your solitary self, whether you want to or not.

About the future

About relationships

About family

All these anxieties just kept piling up.

By morning, everything was back to normal, and we just repeated those days over and over.

Adults called us children, but maybe we were the ones who felt anxiety most closely.

I thought the decisions I made as a child were right, but looking back as an adult, they seem so naive.

We were like that back then, too.

I couldn't even notice his anxiety.

I still remember the words he said to me then.

I didn't even know why. I was convinced it would last forever.

But when I heard those words, his face was utterly exhausted, and his eyes reflected no hope at all.

Had it been like that for a long time, or was it recent?

I was too wrapped up in my own life to know.

Looking back now...

There were so many misunderstandings and fights.

Before I knew it, our strides that used to match were out of sync.

Did I get left behind, or did I leave him behind?

The regret I felt then remains with me for a lifetime. I wonder what he's doing now.

I sip my coffee while thinking of such things.

Thinking of those things, I eventually fell asleep.

When I opened my eyes, I was—

.⋆𝜗𝜚 ┈┈┈┈ ⋯ ┈┈┈┈ 𝜗𝜚 ┈┈┈┈ ⋯ ┈┈┈┈𝜗𝜚.⋆

"If I had made a different choice back then."

"I, now an adult, will have to face that 'what if' once again."