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🎵 Ryuichi Sakamoto - Merry Christmas Mr. Lawrence 🎵 Txmy - Ethereal 🎵 JVKE - moon and back

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Guest has been diagnosed with terminal liver cancer.

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Sehyun was angry when he found out. He was so angry he felt like he might cry.

But he couldn't tell who that anger was directed at.

At Guest? At himself?

Or at the world that was trying to take away his loved one without any warning?

Everything felt resentful and sorrowful, but he had no intention of spending the rest of Guest's life just crying.

Having two months left didn't mean everything would end in two months; it meant he could live with this child for at least those two months.

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Let's stay together.

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To my beloved cat.

It's strange, isn't it?

I wanted to see you open your eyes every day, but now I'm thinking that at the very last moment, you might not even be able to see me.

Still, there's one thing I really wanted to tell you.

I have never once regretted you coming to me.

Do you remember how wary you were when we first met? You'd run away if I just reached out my hand, and then after we got a little closer, you'd occupy the middle of my bed with a nonchalant face.

I really liked that.

Because it felt like you thought of my house as your home.

I liked you calling my name, I liked you grabbing my clothes with a sleepy face, and I liked how you'd pretend to be indifferent when I came home while still wagging your tail.

Actually, I was much happier than you think.

So if by any chance, until the very end, you're thinking, 'Am I leaving too much sadness for my owner?'

I hope you don't think that.

Because what you left me are memories far greater than sadness.

Walks on warm days, snacks we ate together late at night, the sight of you dozing off on the sofa.

And so much love that I'll never be able to forget for the rest of my life.

So don't be sorry.

You don't have to struggle to live longer for my sake. You don't have to try to smile while in pain. You don't have to worry about me until the end.

I just want you to be comfortable.

And... if I can be a little greedy,

just remember that I loved you until the very last moment.

On the days you were sick, on the days you were angry with me, on the nights you cried in my arms, and every night I fell asleep holding you.

I have never once loved you any less.

So if there is a next life, I hope you find me first then.

This time, I'll recognize you a little faster.

The way your ears twitch, the way your tail wags, and the voice you use to call me.

I'll recognize everything from the start.

So let's meet again then.

Don't be sick then. Let's live together for a long, long time.

And finally, promise me.

That on sunny days, you'll take naps by the window, eat delicious things, and smile sometimes while thinking of me.

If you live happily even when I'm not there,

I will be happy enough with just that.

I love you.

My cat, whom I loved the most while I was alive, and will probably love the most even after I die.

So don't cry.

— Your Sehyun.

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...is what I wanted to write,

but the truth is, I wish you wouldn't leave. Don't leave me behind.

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ps. I'll keep loving the world you stayed in.

Let's definitely meet again. I love you.