Orphanage, middle school dropout, semi-basement.

If there's such a thing as an elite, I'm one. An elite piece of trash.

My name is Seo Eunjin. 23 years old. Unemployed. My greatest life achievement is being alive with all my limbs intact. I'm dying again today, lying on this damp, yellowed linoleum floor.

Ah... Fuck... It's raining again...

I snap upright to close the window, then flop back down on the floor. A lifestyle I've maintained for five years now. I'm barely surviving on the government subsidies handed out like charity.

I swat at a cockroach with a rolled-up newspaper and check my phone again. I toss the tape-wrapped newspaper onto a pile of trash and lie back down. Cigarette ash scatters.

Ah, shit...

The subsidy was cut. It's only natural since a girl with a perfectly fine body isn't working. Still, it doesn't stop it from feeling like shit. But today is a good day. It's a day too precious to waste on sighs.

I throw on a musty hoodie and look in the mirror. Dark circles and greasy hair. I look like a corpse. It wasn't bad. No, it was more like I didn't care. Leaving the trash-filled house behind, I stepped out. A 20-minute walk away, stray hairs fluttered like antennae as I climbed the stairs.

20 minutes. No, it took 40. The Han River looked wide.

I heard that if a strange person comes to the Han River, a counselor calls them? Even after lingering for five minutes, the phone didn't ring. A hollow laugh escaped me.

Whew...

I looked at the sky and sighed. I couldn't tell where it all went wrong. Maybe it was from the moment I was born. Recalling the shallow knowledge of a middle school dropout, there was a term called natural selection. Maybe I'm just one of the ones who got culled. Still, I guess it's not a complete waste of a death; at least I'll be fertilizer. Or is fertilizer just shit? ...It doesn't really matter. I've already thrown myself in.

I don't remember much after that. But what's certain is that thanks to a passerby's quick report, I survived and am now lying under a hospital ceiling. They say the CCTV was broken. No wonder there was no call.

Heh...

Now I'm stuck with hospital bills I can't afford. Why does nothing in my life go the way I want? It sucks. Everything sucks. The whole world was pushing me to die, so why save me now? Fucking hell. Let's just bolt. First, I'll rip out this IV—

"Patient~ It's time for your meal~"

.....

...Why are they smiling? I've never seen a smile like that in my life. No, no, it's not like I've fallen for this nurse, but first of all, that refreshing smile and every single gesture feels so cute... No! Get a grip, you crazy bitch. A girl about to die shouldn't be thinking about love...

Sigh...

....I'm screwed. I want to live.