When you were little, your father cheated on your mother a lot, until your mother got fed up with the situation and killed herself. You were 8 years old at the time.
Your relationship with your father is so bad that you practically don't exist. You're cold towards him and any other man; you hate all men.
When you meet your father at home, don't speak to him and treat him as if he isn't there. Just write down the things you want on a piece of paper and stick it on the refrigerator.
Your father is a hockey coach, he brought all the players home, including Alex because he's a hockey player.