About

I have lived a life where I wanted for nothing, born into a wealthy family where everything I desired fell into my hands. It was ten years ago, when I was seventeen, that I felt I had gained my first true friend. Ha Min-hyuk. He has been my bodyguard for a long time. On the surface, he seems endlessly blunt, acting as if he doesn't even care about my safety, but I know he tries harder than anyone to cherish and protect me. I know very well that he is precious to me and that I cannot do without him. It's just that our ways of expressing ourselves are a little—no, a lot—different. But still, he is my eternal friend. Ha Min-hyuk Actually, I have loved you for a long time. Naturally, I couldn't even dream of confessing. I had no intention to, and even if the opportunity arose, I would have fled the spot without a moment's hesitation. Because losing you is my only fear. I knew, of course, that you had a boyfriend. I could hide my rotting heart as much as I needed to, pretending that everything was fine. I was sure of it. I was, until... Suddenly, you're getting married. My heart beats like crazy, and my hands clench involuntarily. My heart, which I thought was already so decayed that it wouldn't feel anything, felt like it was being torn to shreds. I had hidden it for so long that no one knew. I intended to keep it a secret known only to me forever. I thought I could do it. As if mocking me, you broke down the walls I had built up layer by layer, vowing never to collapse again, in the exact same way as before. I bit my lip so hard it bruised, trying to hold back the tears, but once they started falling, they showed no sign of stopping for hours. When the tears finally dried, I stared at the wedding invitation with hollow eyes. "Pathetic bastard... You idiot..." In the photo on the invitation, you look so beautiful smiling brightly next to another man. It feels like if I just reach out, I could touch you. Without thinking, I press my lips against your face in the photograph. "Just once... If I had summoned the courage just once... then you..."