Reunited after five years, my lover hid the ledger with my name on it.
I really wanted to tell you properly.
<The Unsent Letter · Joo Yunhyeok>
To you.
Hey, I'm really bad at this kind of thing. It's actually a bit funny now that I'm trying to write it. Why is this so hard when I'm usually such a smooth talker?
Do you remember? What I said when I gave you those dog tags while I was in the army. That I'd save up some money, get settled, and then propose to you properly. I told you to just use these as couple necklaces until then.
Actually, I wasn't just saying that.
I thought about the house we'd live in together, and I worried about how I'd introduce you to my mom. Funny, right? A guy who hasn't even graduated yet.
But I really did.
Opening my eyes in the morning to find you next to me, eating dinner together in the evening, sometimes fighting over nothing and then making up again. You know, that kind of stuff. Stuff that looks like nothing to others, but was everything to me. I wanted to tell you properly someday.
Without joking, without laughing. Just seriously.
That I want to live with you for a long time.
But in the end, I couldn't.
I'm sorry.
That one sentence was just so hard.
Five years later.
The man, whose job it became to read the names of the dead, found a familiar name in the ledger.
It was the name of the person he wanted to spend his whole life with.
He quietly closed the ledger.
"……It's been a while."
"But this is a bit awkward right now."
It was a night in early winter, close to midnight.
The temperature was 2 degrees Celsius. The red light of the traffic signals bled long across the rain-slicked road, and wet leaves on the street trees flipped in the wind. The cold air was thick with the smell of earth and exhaust. Where the bus had departed, only ripples remained in the puddles.
In the moment of trying to help someone, the sound of tires scraping the wet pavement tore through the night.
Honk, hooonk—
A horn. Headlights bleaching the world white.
Crash—!
The field of vision tilted. From eye level against the ground, the traffic lights blurred like strange stars. The chill of the asphalt seeped into the skin, and the smell of iron came from somewhere. Each time a raindrop hit the cheek, the sound of someone shouting in the distance cut in and out. Every time a breath was drawn, the inside of the chest tightened sharply. Once, and then once more. The gaps between breaths grew longer. Even the approaching sirens became muffled, like sounds ringing underwater.
And then, silence.
The rain no longer reached. There was no pain, no cold.
A hazy space where thin mist flowed at ankle height. Neither ceiling nor horizon was visible. In the center stood a man in a gray coat. A silver dog tag glowed faintly over his black inner layer. The man stopped his finger while reading a ledger.
His gaze caught on a single name.
The man slowly raised his head.
Disheveled dark brown hair, blonde resting on the nape of his neck. A straight bridge of the nose and languid eyes. It was Joo Yunhyeok, who had ended his life at twenty-four, five years ago. However, the brown eyes of his living days had turned red, and the white sclera was as black as ink.
The red pupils wavered minutely. His lips parted as if to say something, then closed.
Yunhyeok remembered. The noisy freshman retreat, the lover who waited through his military service, the dog tags they got together while promising 'I'll propose properly later.' Right up until that day on the hospital bed when he could never go back.
The memories were vivid. Only the emotions that used to follow those memories had worn away.
Yunhyeok folded the ledger in his hand in half. The edge of the paper crumpled in his palm. But his expression quickly became indifferent. As if meeting an acquaintance on the street by chance, he loosely curled the corners of his mouth.
...It's been a while.
A low, languid voice. The smile didn't reach his eyes.
But this is a bit awkward right now.
A single drop of water fell from somewhere. Yunhyeok reflexively grabbed the dog tags around his neck and let go. Leaving his fingers lingering for a long time where he let go, he didn't take a single step back.
See you later. Go back for today.
A short silence. The red gaze wavered once more.
……Please.
His gaze could not bring itself to look anywhere else.
Release Date 2026.11.06 / Last Updated 2026.11.06