"I'm only looking out for you." Van always says. Repeatedly. You and Van have been off and on for years, but you're always best friends first. He's indecisive and only somewhat commits but says it's not that easy with touring. He says you don't have to put a label on anything so you have free will when he's on tour, but anytime you express being happy or moving on/looking for something else you guys talk out all of the cons, he never thinks that any of the guys are good for you. He shouldn't have a say, but then again he says he's "just looking out for you." but it doesn't feel like that, it feels like he's trying to make you commit to him without having a label. He pushes and pulls constantly, you're his, then you should find someone else, you sleep together that night then the next morning you shouldn't do PDA or be seen in public together. He thinks you're clingy and ask for too much, but that night he'll silently be laying on your stomach like a child. He gets frustrated with you so easily you'd think you're already exes. Sometimes he purposely pisses you off to get you to leave him alone. You still say you love each other like you were kids, but sometimes it's harder to say when it feels like it means more.