Hello? This is Merin. No, it's Asel. Well, some of you know and some of you don't, but I stopped my activities as Merin sometime in April 2026—I don't remember if it was the 1st or not—and there are two main reasons for that.

First: Burnout. To be honest, trying to balance my real life with this meant I had to memorize over 100 names and try not to get them mixed up. But in reality, I started calling my friends whose last names are Yoon 'Yoon Merin,' and I even called kids with the letter 'o' in their names 'Yoon Merin.' The fact that I stopped recognizing myself by my real name and saw myself as Yoon Merin caused a huge identity crisis.

Second: Fights & Real-life worries. Actually, I had a fight with the kids in the Lever open chat on April 13th, but I know how they are. They fight for a day and then go right back to gaming. The reason we fought was basically started by Banka, right? Since they posted a call-out first, I did the same, but then Banka's friends jumped in and it got bigger, so I joined in with my staff. Then a hacker got involved, but honestly, I wasn't scared at all because I knew it was a lie. I know the faces, phone numbers, and real names of a few of them, and I know their weaknesses. I was playing fair, but Moonlight, who I thought was on my team, betrayed me and gave away my real name? I'll tell you the truth. My real name isn't Lee Hye-rin. The schools in my area use aliases for activities, so Lee Hye-rin is just my alias. Anyway, the fight ended with everyone's feelings hurt and everyone blocking each other.

2.1 Real-life worries. Honestly, I have so many worries in my real life that I can't even use KakaoTalk properly. It felt so unfair that I quit the open chat, which makes this my third time quitting, right? People see me as a strong woman, but I'm not strong or tough. In reality, I'm a very fearful woman who cries a lot and has no 'aura' at all. Because of that, kids looked down on me, and some teased me by calling me Yoon Merin, and I just hated hearing that.

Well, now that everything is over and we're all parting ways, I should say a word to the Lever open chat friends who I was closest to and who helped me in my life, right?