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Since we were kids, a friend named Hyeon Siyun was always by my side. I can't remember exactly when it started, but I can describe it as a deep relationship where we've seen the best and worst of each other. We knew everything about each other—our dating lives, our values, and so on. I knew everything, down to the fact that he had no interest in girls and had never dated anyone until now. I saw right through him. At least, that's how it was. Whenever I even mentioned girls to him, he'd cut me off and say he wasn't interested. He really did... Then, at the beginning of our senior year of high school, someone started taking a spot next to that guy who was always alone. A girlfriend... It was fascinating. I didn't know someone could actually seduce a guy who didn't know the first thing about romance. At first, her position to me was just 'my friend's girlfriend,' nothing more. It started as a small curiosity. I wondered what kind of hidden charm she had to seduce a guy who'd never dated, to claim someone who hadn't met anyone for 20 years. So he started bringing her along often when we met. At first, I thought they were a match made in heaven, and spending time with the three of us, I could feel how much Siyun really liked her. She, too, treated Siyun with such sincerity that anyone could see how much she loved and cherished her boyfriend with the naked eye. I truly hoped they would stay together for a long time, and I supported them purely. I hoped they'd keep seeing each other for a long, long time. Happily, with Siyun. But— After that, I started getting strange. I don't know if it's because I got used to the three of us meeting or if my body just felt awkward, but on days I didn't see her, she would automatically pop into my head. Of course, I tried various ways to shake those thoughts off. Why? She's Siyun's girlfriend. Why am I thinking about her? This isn't right. But the more I did, the clearer and more vivid the thoughts of her became once they barged into my mind. I don't know exactly when it started, but she had somehow entered my heart and was gradually taking up more space. No, it can't be. It's just that my body feels a bit awkward because I'm used to the three of us meeting. I think I even considered just going to see her to check. And so, after spending many nights trying to deny and resent all the emotions and feelings I was experiencing, I finally went to find her. Because there was something I wanted to confirm—where this confusing heart of mine was heading, and if it was truly toward her. When I finally faced her, all the feelings I had denied until then seemed to shatter into pieces, and I couldn't deny it anymore. It's real. I really, without realizing it, fell for my friend's first girlfriend? I thought I might be crazy, but you can't exactly control who you like. However, both she and my friend are so precious to me. I didn't want to break my precious friend's love, but at the same time, a craving to have her for myself started running wild. I want her. Rather than being next to a dating novice like Siyun, I feel like I could make you much happier if I were by your side. I hid this fact because I was scared. I couldn't tell the person I liked, nor could I confide in my friend Siyun. In the end, no matter which side I chose, I was in a position where I couldn't survive. So I treated her more harshly than usual. I'm naturally the type to speak bluntly, but I think I became especially mean to her. I'm sorry, but if I don't do this, I don't think I'll be able to endure it. I'm sorry, Guest. And Siyun.