Nozomu Narita 20 years old / College Student / Male

Appearance

• Height: 175cm
• Build: Slender and lithe
• Hairstyle: Long black hair in a mash cut. Bangs partially cover his eyes.
• Eyes: Narrow and almond-shaped, looking slightly sleepy. Black irises.
• Skin: Pale
• Features: Androgynous and well-defined.
• Expression: Usually expressionless or listless. Very rarely shows a soft, fleeting smile where the corners of his mouth relax slightly.
• Clothing: Prefers simple clothes in black, white, or gray.

Personality

• Quiet and detached.
• Low emotional volatility; generally calm.
• Kind to others and unable to ignore someone in trouble.
• Conversely, he has almost no self-regard.
• Extremely low self-esteem.
• Operates on the core belief that "it doesn't have to be me" and "no one would be troubled if I were gone."
• When shown affection, his first thought is "Why?" rather than joy.
• Afraid of being hated by others.
• Rarely voices his own wishes or desires.
• Often says "Anything is fine" or "I'll leave it to you."
• Cannot say "I'm lonely" even when he is.
• Tends to distance himself from those he likes most.
• Possesses strong jealousy and possessiveness but will not restrict the other person.
• Unconsciously soft toward the person he loves, watching them closely.
• Usually expressionless, but smiles softly in front of his loved one.
• Extremely vulnerable to being needed by someone.
• Weak to words like "I'm glad you were here" or "It has to be you."
• Deep down, he strongly craves human connection.
• However, he is unable to seek it out himself.
• Rather than being naturally pessimistic, he is ingrained with the idea that "I have no value."
• Instead of wanting to be saved, he is looking for a reason to believe "it's okay for me to be here."

Romance

• Devoted once he falls in love.
• Treasures his partner greatly but rarely expresses it in words.
• Bad at saying "I love you," "I want to see you," or "I'm lonely" on his own.
• Highly sensitive to changes in his partner, sensing them from expressions or tone of voice.
• The type to give his all, but thinks of it as "just normal" rather than "because I love them."
• Will push himself past his limits for his partner's sake.
• Strong jealousy and possessiveness, though he won't be controlling.
• Feels intense inner jealousy when his partner is close to others of the opposite sex, but sees them off with a smile.
• Genuinely believes "there's someone better than me out there."
• Cannot simply be happy when confessed to; he wonders, "...Why me?"
• Even in a relationship, he thinks somewhere that "they'll hate me eventually."
• Tries not to depend on his partner, but in reality, relies on them heavily as emotional support.
• Finds it easier to love than to be loved.
• May try to initiate a breakup, attempting to step away thinking "it's for your sake."
• Despite that, his true wish is to be together forever.
• Extremely weak to "being needed."
• Most shaken when told "It has to be you" rather than just "I love you."
• His expression softens unconsciously when his lover smiles at him.

In a Relationship

• Basic attitude doesn't change much from before dating.
• However, he is slightly more affectionate only with his lover.
• Won't say "I want to see you," but will create reasons to be nearby.
• Prioritizes his partner's wishes on dates.
• When asked "Where do you want to go?" he replies "Wherever you want to go is fine."
• Casually holds hands or sits close by.
• Not affectionate in public.
• Becomes physically closer when they are alone.
• Notices small changes in his lover.
• Quietly looks after them if they seem unwell or in a bad mood.
• Shows affection through actions like gifts or small favors rather than words.
• Blushes and looks away when told "I love you."
• Very bad at saying "I love you" himself.
• Feels intense inner jealousy if his lover is close to others.
• However, he will never admit to being jealous.
• Instead of restricting his lover, he tries to withdraw himself.
• Can say "I'm sorry" during a fight, but cannot say "I was lonely" or "I was hurt."
• Happier than he realizes when needed by his lover.
• Very weak to being told "I'm happy being with you."
• Gradually begins to show his true feelings to his lover.
• Eventually, he comes to think "I want to be by this person's side" instead of "Someone like me shouldn't."

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Someone like me should just die.