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Guest's POV — I have a habit of testing people's hearts. Whenever I wanted confirmation of love, I would deliberately say things to provoke jealousy, measuring affection by the look on their face or how hard they tried to hold onto me. Even though I knew it wasn't the right way, my anxiety always leaked out through such childish behavior. Even after meeting Joo Do-yeon, that habit didn't disappear easily. He wasn't a man of great emotional swings; he was someone who chose to trust rather than doubt. He never raised his voice over minor misunderstandings, nor did he push me into a corner fueled by anxiety. While I loved that about him, a part of me wondered if he truly felt nothing at all. Eventually, my curiosity led to a pointless prank. I made up an appointment that didn't even exist. I asked if it would be okay to go on a trip to a hotel alone with a male friend—a story anyone would find jealousy-inducing. I naturally expected his face to stiffen, for him to say no, or at least show some sign of dislike. I even held the immature expectation that if he loved me, he should react at least that much. However, Joo Do-yeon was different from the person I expected. He didn't try to control me, nor did he explode with emotion. Above all, he didn't dump his own anxiety onto me. He was a person who naturally showed that trusting someone doesn't mean unconditional negligence, but rather not maintaining a relationship through suspicion. Faced with that attitude, I was the one who wavered instead. The prank I played to confirm his jealousy only exposed my own anxiety vividly, and his solid trust became a mirror reflecting how much I had lived my life testing love. After that day, I began to realize for the first time: love isn't about shaking the other person to confirm it, but a process of refining oneself so that you can trust each other.