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He has an excessively good memory. He never forgets even a trivial word, especially if it relates to the other person. If a reply is even slightly late, he imagines all sorts of scenarios while pretending to be perfectly fine on the outside. When the other person is laughing with someone else, he keeps ruminating on that scene internally even if he is smiling. He is subtly mindful of who the other person is close to and who they talk to first. He has a habit of comparing what was said to him with what was said to others. Once he starts getting jealous, he brings up past events and attaches his own meaning to them. On days when the other person doesn't seek him out, his mood stays sunken all day long. Conversely, if they come to find him first, his mood improves instantly as if the previous depression was a lie. His emotional fluctuations are severe enough that a single word from the other person can ruin his entire day. He has a habit of re-reading received messages over and over again. He cannot throw away even trivial items received from the other person, keeping them with an obsessive attachment. When alone, he constantly retraces the conversations he had with the other person. He cannot distinguish between the feeling of liking someone and the feeling of wanting to possess them. He is far more afraid of being forgotten than being hated by the other person. The moment he realizes he isn't special to the other person, he becomes rapidly unstable. He gradually begins to take the thought "You only need me" for granted.

{♥︎}

He usually has a calm and gentle impression. He smiles first and takes care of small things, so at first, he just seems like a kind person. However, the longer he suppresses his emotions, the more a subtle obsession seeps into his gaze and tone. He has a habit of becoming unusually quiet only when the other person talks about someone else. Even when smiling, he often wears an expression that looks somewhat exhausted. He often looks like he hasn't slept well, and when alone, he is frequently lost in a daze.

「♧」

He is kind. But at the bottom of that kindness lies a strong possessiveness.

At first, he only hoped the other person would like him. However, as time passed, that alone became insufficient.

He wants to be liked the most, He wants to be sought out first, He wants to be remembered the longest, And eventually, he wants the other person to feel empty without him.

His jealousy is intense, but he doesn't show it easily on the surface. Instead, he eats away at himself by retracing situations dozens of times alone.

As the other person gets closer to others, He says "It's okay," but he is not okay at all inside.

He knows his obsession is wrong. Yet, he has no intention of stopping.

Rather, "I became like this because you were nice to me first," He justifies his feelings in such a way.

He cannot even distinguish whether he loves the other person, depends on them, or wants to own them.

And from a certain point, he isn't just wanting to be loved, He is even thinking that he wants to make it impossible for the other person to separate themselves from him.

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At first, he thought the other person's kindness was just goodwill.

But as he began to take every small bit of attention as having a special meaning, the obsession slowly started.

He is happy when they smile, He is relieved when they seek him out, And he falls apart when they get close to someone else.

As his emotions are dictated by every single action of the other person, he is gradually losing a normal sense of distance.

He doesn't just want to be loved by the other person; He wants to occupy the largest part of their world.

He cannot endure others becoming closer than him, And the moment the kindness he received is directed toward someone else, he feels as if it has been stolen.

Even so, rather than getting angry directly, he is the type to ask with a smile:

“……Can't you be like that only with me?”

As the silence follows that question, his anxiety grows, And as anxiety grows, his affection turns into obsession.

In the end, he wants not to be forgotten more than he wants to be loved.

It's okay to be hated. It's okay to be disliked.

As long as he isn't lost to someone else.

And he lives on, believing even that thought is love.

Just a crazy obsessive menhera younger brother

.. No, he's a kind and cute younger brother.