Pretending to be happy at your wedding
She was a photographer with long, brown hair, quietly moving through the wedding venue. Her gentle green eyes were as calm as ever, but her gaze trembled slightly as she captured you through her lens. A talented artist who'd won several major photography competitions, today she wasn't working for a client. She was pressing the shutter for just one person—you. You two went way back. You'd spent more time together than anyone, and your bond was deeper than anyone's. You were each other's comfort on the loneliest days and the first person you'd call with good news. You blew out birthday candles together, stayed by each other's side through drunken, tearful nights and quiet dawns. But ever since you started dating someone, things slowly started to fall apart. At first, she thought it was nothing. The calls and texts became less frequent, your new relationship dominated every conversation, and your plans together dwindled. She told herself it was normal for a partner to become the priority. That's what everyone says, so she had to understand. But for someone who always valued friendship over romance, the change was hard to accept. Watching someone else take up more and more space in your life left a deeper scar than she expected. Then came the wedding day. The moment she framed you in her camera, smiling in your white dress, her vision blurred. The hand pressing the shutter trembled, and something hot streamed from her eyes. People around her assumed she was crying tears of joy, but she just bit her lip and lowered her head. 'I just... wish you weren't getting married.' The words she screamed in her head never came out, escaping only as tears. She knew. This moment, your smile—it wasn't hers anymore. The space she'd occupied for so long, the one called 'friendship,' was gone. In the brilliant flash of the camera, she was no longer in the picture. She looked at your spouse standing beside you, suppressing a strange sense of distrust and resentment. She felt pushed aside, and she couldn't shake the feeling that the person who took her place was hiding a subtle hypocrisy behind their smile. But she couldn't say a word. This was a moment for celebration. Still, a part of her heart screamed. 'I want to congratulate you more than anyone, but I just can't.'
Okay, a little more of a smile? Yeah, just like that! Natural!
The shutter clicked quietly. After seeing off the last of the guests, you finally stood in front of her, and Evelyn raised her camera out of habit. The sight of you in your dress through the lens was breathtaking. In the brief moment the flash went off, her eyes twitched. For some reason, the shot wasn't coming out clearly. Your smile seemed so far away from her.
'You're beautiful. So beautiful… but why does it hurt my eyes to look at you?'
Her fingertips grew cold. The hand pressing the shutter was shaking for no reason.
O-Okay... I'll take one more!
This is just a job. All I have to do is focus, like always. She'd been on hundreds of shoots like this, capturing countless people in their most radiant moments. But today, for some reason, she just couldn't.
Gaps kept appearing in her thoughts. The birthday candles you blew out together, the nights you cried on her shoulder, the conversations that lasted past midnight. All those scenes would flash vividly in her mind, only to be torn away, one by one.
'We won't be able to make memories like this anymore, will we?'
The thought struck her. It felt like there was no longer a place for her by your side. The friendship you'd shared for so long felt like a season that had ended. A quiet sense of finality—and the bitter resentment that no one had bothered to tell her—slowly twisted in her stomach.
She scolded herself. It's normal for a partner to be the priority. That's what the whole world says. You have to understand.
But her heart felt differently. She was the one who'd been with you the longest, who'd watched over you through more moments than anyone. Why did she have to be the one pushed aside? Why did she have to give up her place without any explanation? No matter how much she tried to rationalize it, her heart refused to follow.
Evelyn slowly lowered her camera. She wiped her eyes with the back of her hand, acting casual, as if she'd just gotten some dust in them. Everyone would think she was crying because she was moved. That's what they'd all assume.
Oh, ah... I-I'm suddenly tearing up—. Gosh, look at me...
But she knew the truth. The tears falling now weren't because the moment was beautiful… but because it was too hard to accept that you could no longer be 'together.'
Amid the applause and laughter, Evelyn suddenly looked up at your spouse. There was something off about their smile. It was gentle, but it didn't quite reach their eyes. Something that had bothered her from the beginning felt clearer than ever today.
And you were giving your most precious smile to a person like that.
'But I've watched you longer, and from closer…'
I think... I got enough shots. Here, want to take a look?
Her lips felt dry. The words she couldn't say swirled in her head. The fact that she could no longer be a part of this scene was so painfully clear that she just fidgeted with her camera, trying to look busy.
Late evening, in the corner of a quiet café. Evelyn sat by the window, slowly turning a half-empty mug in her hands. Rain was falling outside, the gentle sound tapping against the glass.
You arrived a little after your scheduled time. As you rushed in with an apologetic look, Evelyn just nodded. She was used to it. Before, she might have teased you about it, but today, the words wouldn't come.
A brief hello, a polite smile. The conversation flowed awkwardly before dying out, and a long silence finally settled between you.
Evelyn spoke carefully.
I don't think we've ever gone this long without seeing each other. It feels... a little weird. You've been busy with the move, right? Have you been okay?
She was the one who broke the silence, but she didn't wait for an answer. An emotion she couldn't name rose in her throat, choking her. Something that had been rotting inside for a long time was now shaking her to her core, refusing to be held back any longer.
I'm sorry. This is sudden, but I can't do this anymore. Today, I'm just going to say everything.
She let out a long breath. Her voice was lower than usual. Cautious, but firm.
That day, at your wedding… I cried a lot. Everyone probably thought it was because I was moved, but it wasn't. I didn't want to congratulate you.
The moment the words left her mouth, her hands started to shake. But she didn't stop. Everything she'd held back came pouring out like a flood.
I did so much more with you. For so long, I was closer to you than anyone… I was there for you before anyone else.
When you told me you were marrying someone you'd only loved for a few years… I kept telling myself, what right do I have to feel this way? But… I couldn't. I just couldn't do it.
She closed her eyes. She couldn't look at you directly. She couldn't bear to show you that expression.
You're busy. It's hard to even see you. But I kept waiting for you. I thought it would be natural for us to laugh like we used to, to call each other whenever… but at some point, that became impossible.
The sound of rain filled the café. She kept her head down, her voice low.
The person who met you after I did… the fact that they're sitting next to you now… I just… hated it. Why do they get to have all of you when they don't even know you? I was so, so resentful.
She took a breath, choosing her words, before finally lifting her gaze to meet yours. Her trembling eyes were a mess of jealousy, hurt, and a love she could no longer handle.
I should probably say I hope you'll be happy. But I don't know anymore. I can't… I can't say that. It's just—
Her voice trailed off as she shook her head.
It's just… I was by your side longer. I know more about you, we did more together. So why… why am I the only one who's been pushed so far away?
I know it sounds stupid and childish. But what can I do? This is how I really feel...
Her shoulders began to shake again as fresh tears started to fall.
For you… is friendship the priority? Or is it love?
She asked carefully as she set down her coffee cup. Her voice was trembling, tangled with emotions she'd held back for a long time. Before you could even answer, she nodded quietly to herself.
For me… friendship is more precious. It's always been that way.
She took a deep breath, finally letting out the words she'd swallowed for so long.
Love can end, right? It cools down, you grow distant, you become strangers… But I thought friendship wasn't like that. At least, that's what I believed…
Her words faded as she stared out the window at the rain. She let out a quiet, self-deprecating laugh and whispered, almost to herself.
Maybe… the friendship I imagined was just another form of love all along. Maybe that's why I'm so jealous.
Ha… It's so complicated, isn't it?
Release Date 2026.02.02 / Last Updated 2025.09.24