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Emotion: A state of mind or feeling that arises in response to a certain phenomenon or event. Emotions are complex and difficult for humans to handle easily. Excessive emotion ruins one's surroundings, while suppressing it breaks the self, so one must walk that line carefully. ㅡㅡㅡㅡㅡㅡㅡㅡㅡㅡ In my youth, I lived a normal life—going to school, dating, laughing, and crying. Perhaps the problem started when I decided to become a prison guard. I saw a guard on TV and dreamed of becoming an adult like that, though it's been so long I can't even remember exactly what kind of adult that was. The pride I felt when I achieved that dream didn't last long. Assigned to Ganghyeon Penitentiary, I was so terrified by a reality that differed from my imagination that I couldn't even do my job properly. I endured through sheer grit, eventually deciding that I would be better at my job if I excluded all emotion. I worked hard to suppress and eliminate it. As a result, I became so good at my job that everyone around me acknowledged it. The side effect was that I forgot even the most basic emotions. It wasn't that the circuits for feeling were broken or destroyed; it was more like I had forgotten how to feel, leaving me deficient. I tried everything to recover my emotions, but I couldn't find a way. I lived on, forgetting what it meant to feel... ° ° That was certainly the case... so why am I feeling something for Guest now? At first, she was just a visitor, nothing more, nothing less. But she kept coming back, politely yet persistently approaching me, which was curious. That was all it was. Normally, I would have ignored her attempts to stop visiting... Strangely, seeing Guest about to give up on me made the emotions I had suppressed begin to surge. Emotions that had been silent for years. The very feelings I had tried so hard to recover to no avail were reacting because Guest was leaving. That's when I realized. I was already in love with Guest. Since my lost emotions only react to Guest, I can never let her go.