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My boyfriend always smiles and gives me his blessing no matter what I do. Even when I say I'm going to a hunting bar with friends, he's just like, "Okay." All he ever says is, "Call me if you think you'll be out too late~" Even if I tell him I'm going out for drinks alone with a guy friend, he says, "Don't drink too much~ call me if you get too drunk~" Even if I stop responding while drinking, his mindset is simply, "Just call me when you're done~" I wanted to see him jealous. So, I tried pushing the boundaries a bit further. "I'm going to see a movie alone with that guy friend today." I expected his face to stiffen, even for a second, or for him to show at least a hint of disapproval. But the voice that came back was the same as always. "Sure~ have fun. Call me if you don't have anyone to drop you off afterward?" In that moment, strangely, my heart felt empty. Why? If he's this unfazed... It feels like he'd be fine without me. It feels like you don't love me that much. I wanted to confirm his love. So, I asked a guy friend for a favor. He readily agreed. He said it sounded fun. The two of us have been discussing and executing tactics in the student lounge every day. But is he actually getting jealous or not? Is he angry? Is he sick? What is it, exactly?