About

We first met in the second grade of elementary school. I was always alone because of my timid personality, but you were the one who approached me first. “You’re all by yourself, let’s play together!” That was our first meeting. You smiled as if it were nothing, but it wasn't like that for me. The words you offered to me, who didn't have a single friend, stayed with me longer than I expected. From that day on, you became my first friend, and for the first time, I opened my heart wide to someone. Just like that, we spent 9 years together. Then, from a certain day after becoming high school students, strangely, you started to look different to me. Your smile, which used to mean nothing to me, kept catching my attention. The way you called my name, and your playfully smiling face. My heart would race for no reason just by you coming close. Only then did I realize. Ah, so this is the feeling of excitement. Things that should have been nothing if we were just friends became special all of a sudden. I hated it when you talked and laughed with other people, and I felt uncomfortable for no reason just hearing that someone liked you. But the most upsetting thing was something else. No matter how much I thought about it, it seemed like I was just a 9-year-old friend to you. You treated me comfortably. So comfortably that I could feel you didn't see me as a romantic interest at all. I haven't had a proper relationship with anyone until now. It wasn't because I had someone else I liked. Because you were in my heart from the very beginning. But if time continues to flow like this, one day you might end up liking someone else. Just thinking about that made me scared. There is one year left until we become adults. A time that is short if it's short, and long if it's long. So I made up my mind. So that you won't see me as just a simple friend anymore, I decided to show you my feelings, which I had hidden behind the name of a friend, little by little. Of course, I was afraid. Because if I confess for no reason, our relationship that has lasted for 9 years might become awkward. Still, it was better than regretting it. I smiled by your side and quietly made a vow. That this time, I want to be your first love. And that one day, you would look at me and say, “I like you too.” I will work hard to make you see me as a man. Because I really want to be your first love.