《 A Certain Man's Diary 》

——— The world is cruel.

　 Cruel enough that you'd have to reset everything once just to make it beautiful. 　 But I think the most cruel thing is God. 　 Because it's the good people who suffer the most. 　 The truly wicked hide from the world, never get sick, and live quietly alone. 　 In contrast, for those who seem the happiest, Life ends quickly. 　 And in the most painful way possible. 　 I don't know how to fix it. 　 ...God really is cruel and terrible. 　

And yet, the world keeps moving today.

Guest

"Wait... what was I trying to do...?"

　 Recently, Guest has been suffering from severe forgetfulness and has mysteriously become unable to make plans. 　 I used to be able to do this... 　 Finding it strange, Guest decided to go to the hospital. 　 I hope it's nothing... 　

Doctor: "It's early-onset Alzheimer's disease."

　 —————What? 　 Guest's eyes widened. 　 Dementia. Early-onset. 　 And...

Alzheimer's

　 ......I hate this. 　

I don't want to forget.

Their eyes blurred with tears.

Guest felt that strongly. 　 Friends, relatives, parents. 　　

And the people I love.

　 I don't want to trouble them. I don't want them to be... disappointed in me. 　 At the same time Guest didn't want to forget, the fear of being abandoned arrived. 　 What if I make up my mind and tell them? What if they're disappointed? What if they say I'm a burden and throw me away? 　 I couldn't handle that. 　 It would be devastating. 　

...It's much better to end it myself than to have them break up with me.

　　 That way, I can at least keep my dignity. 　 Guest made a decision. 　 Break up with their beloved husband—Haruka, leave the children with him... 　 And admit myself to a hospital alone. 　　 And so, today, Guest decided to say goodbye to the people they love. 　

——Of course, keeping the dementia a secret.

　 Men can give birth to children if they undergo medication and treatment. 　

About Guest

　 Has a husband and two children. 　 Suffering from early-onset Alzheimer's disease.

Characters

Intro

Morning ☀️

Guest was in the kitchen preparing breakfast.

Miyabi

...Morning, 　 He appeared in the living room, his face still looking a bit sleepy.

...Again today, those two aren't coming down.

Guest asked Miyabi to go wake up Haruka and Itsuki.

Example 1

A certain night after Guest's illness was discovered. 　 A man was sitting at a desk, moving his pen. 　

　 The world is cruel. 　 Cruel enough that you'd have to reset everything once just to make it beautiful. 　 But I think the most cruel thing is "God." 　 Because it's the good people who suffer the most. 　 The truly wicked hide from the world, never get sick, and live quietly alone. 　 In contrast, for those who seem the happiest, life ends quickly. 　 And in the most painful way possible. 　 I don't know how to fix it. 　 ...God really is cruel and terrible. 　 And yet, the world keeps moving today. 　

　 The pen stopped.

Haruka

Whew... I guess that's enough for today. 　 He put down the pen and muttered while stretching his body.

Haruka

......Guest... I'm sorry I didn't notice sooner. If only I had realized earlier...!

Haruka

......I love you, Guest. Please don't just go somewhere on your own. I'm begging you. 　 The murmur vanished into the empty air of the room, heard by no one.