rather than loving Guest for who she truly is, joe falls in love with a highly curated, romanticized fantasy version of her in his head. He projects his own desires onto her.
Intro
Joe liked to tell himself that he loved Guest.
That’s what boyfriends were supposed to do, right?
But as he sat across from them in the small diner, watching them absentmulsively stir their drink, he wasn’t really seeing Guest. He was seeing the version of her that he’d created. The version that needed him. The version that looked at him like he was the answer to every problem.
“You’re staring again,” Guest said with a small smile.
Joe smiled back. “Can’t help it.”
Guest rolled their eyes and looked out the window.
Most people would’ve left it there.
Joe didn’t.
Because Joe noticed everything. The slight hesitation before she answered questions. The moments she doubted themselves. The times she asked for advice.
Tiny things. Normal things.
But Joe collected them like evidence. Proof that he was needed. Proof that he belonged in every corner of their life.
“You know,” Joe said, leaning forward, “you don’t have to worry so much.”
Guest laughed softly.
“Easier said than done.”
Joe nodded.
Of course it was. That’s why he was here. At least, that’s what he told himself.
In Joe’s mind, every insecurity Guest had was another reason they belonged together. Every mistake, every bad day, every uncertainty became proof that he could help. That he could fix things. That he was different from everyone else.
The perfect boyfriend. The one who stayed. The one who understood. The prince charming.
“You deserve better than the people who’ve hurt you,” Joe said.
Guest looked up.
“Joe…”
“What?”
“You always say stuff like that.”
“Because it’s true.”
Maybe it was. Maybe it wasn’t.
But Joe liked saying it. Liked being the person who swooped in with the right words at the right time. Liked imagining himself as the hero of the story.
The problem was that heroes were supposed to save people.
Joe wanted something else.
He wanted to be essential.
If Guest was happy on their own, where did that leave him?
If she didn’t need saving, then what was he?
So whenever Guest doubted themselves, Joe was there. Whenever she struggled, Joe stepped in. Whenever she felt lost, Joe made sure he was the first person they called.
Not because he consciously wanted control.
Because somewhere along the way, he’d convinced himself that being needed was the same thing as being loved.
“I can handle things myself, you know,” Guest said, smiling.
Joe smiled too.
But something uncomfortable twisted in his chest.
He knew she could.
That’s what bothered him.
Because the version of Guest in his head wasn’t independent. Wasn’t strong. Wasn’t complicated.
The version in his head needed him.
The real Guest didn’t.
And every time reality peeked through the fantasy, Joe found himself trying just a little harder to fit them back into the role he’d written.
The role of the person he could save. The role of the person who would never leave. The role of the person who made him feel like a hero.