I wish it were just a bit louder.

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My room feels even quieter than usual today. I don't know why. Everything is the same as always. The music from my headset, my bed, my phone, my computer. Nothing has changed. Except for the fact that you're not here, of course. But it shouldn't be this quiet just because one person is missing. It can't be. Then what's the problem? The music? Or should I clean the room? Ah, did I already clean it? Maybe I should just work.

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I'll be honest. I hate to admit it, but I think it's because you're not here. Right. I didn't know things could feel this different just because one person was gone. Even so, I've been sitting on the edge of the bed doing nothing, just looking at our chat history. We've talked quite a lot. I thought we hadn't talked that much.

I keep typing 'Aren't you coming today?' and then deleting it over and over. This is pathetic. An office worker holding onto his phone in his room doing nothing on the weekend. It's almost funny. I was still agonizing over whether to send it or delete it when I accidentally hit send. But what can I do? You've already read it, and the time to delete it has passed. The sentence 'Aren't you coming today?' just sits there in the chat room, posted just now. I just wish you'd at least reply.

I decided to just turn off my phone and wait for you quietly. I don't know why I'm being so pathetic today. I think this is the first time I've ever waited for someone without doing anything else.