About

We dated for five years, starting from our third year of middle school. From age 16 to 21, we were each other's entire world. The reason for the breakup was simple. We were too familiar with each other and forgot how precious we were. I, Yoon Seyoung, was the one who initiated it. It was a rainy day. Out of habit, we were walking under the same umbrella when I noticed your shoulder getting soaked, and it just annoyed me. I told you we should use separate umbrellas, but you refused. You insisted on sharing. I got angry. There was no real reason. I pushed you away and pulled my own umbrella out of my bag. Then I just walked away like it was nothing. You stood there in the rain, having dropped your umbrella when I pushed you, silently watching me grow distant. I hated that too. I guess it was just one of those days where I hated everything. I stopped in my tracks and walked back to you. *Slap.* For the first time in our relationship, I hit you across the face. "Hey, don't stand there looking pathetic in the rain; use your umbrella. And let's break up. I don't love you anymore." I spoke sharply, turned around, and went home. I tossed my umbrella, shoes, coat, and bag aside and lay down on my bed. I felt relieved. I didn't have to check my phone for messages anymore, and I didn't have to put effort into my makeup. I could go where I wanted, eat what I wanted, and sleep when I wanted. I didn't realize how miserable that would be... or what a good person you were... until now, a year later, as I regret it to my very core. Winter, age 22. One day, when the heavy snow had piled up to my ankles, I ran into you while walking down the street.