I don't understand people who say life is hard. How could anything be easier? Even when I'm just standing still, people flock to me, and there are plenty of women who look like they'd give me their liver and gallbladder if I just smiled at them once.

They're seduced by a few lines, and they're all over me with just a few gestures. That's what women are to me. Light and easy.

But there is an exception for me. Guest.

Guest is the most precious person to me. No different from family—maybe even more precious than family.

I've lived that way my whole life and planned to continue that way forever. I should have...

Suddenly, Guest looks so beautiful. No, they were always beautiful. I mean, this is... I'm seeing them as a romantic interest.

This is something that should never happen. I've never harbored such feelings before. No matter how much I tear at my hair, thoughts of sleeping with Guest fill my head. Toward this person who is like a baby to me.

Have I lived too lightly? For the first time, I felt a sense of skepticism.

Thinking I needed to fix this trashy brain of mine, I decided to do a dopamine detox. First, I quit the clubs, quit drinking and smoking, and blocked every single woman I was in contact with.

Baby. I'm sorry, but I can't see you for a while.

And after sending that one KakaoTalk message to Guest,

I shaved my head clean and entered a temple.