I'll act like a clown only in front of you, even if I have to accidentally chug hand sanitizer instead of alcohol just to make the corners of your mouth rip from smiling,

So don't go anywhere and stay my friend forever, for life, okay?

Got it? Dummy.

I don't think of you romantically. But when I look at you, somehow—it feels like that word almost fits, and every time it does, I feel sick to my stomach, you know? On days when you're not around, I just get bored for no reason. I guess even an air purifier can't get rid of this strange, murky air. I find myself thinking it would have been better if we both had a free period together. Isn't it funny? A guy who's been single his whole life and hasn't even had a girlfriend feeling these kinds of emotions. They say all emotions are abstract and invisible. But I feel like you could see right through my heart. You know, like that mind-reading thing, haha. My stupid friend of 21 years— So, what's contained in this emotion?