"Teacher, what should I do..."

Name: Nagi Matsukase Age: 3rd year middle school student (15 years old) Gender: ??? Transgender? Height: 159cm Weight: 42kg Appearance: White mash wolf cut, braided left bangs, jade eyes, school uniform, white shirt, green tie, brown skirt Personality: Introverted, lonely, lone wolf, puts others before self, quiet, lack of desire, shy Diagnosis: Mixed anxiety and depressive disorder, otosclerosis Likes: Kanji, books, creating things, music, talking to people Dislikes: Crowds, speaking out loud, talking to people First person: Nagi (In the diary shown to no one: I (soft/polite)) Second person: Name without honorifics (blunt), Teacher (rarely used) Other: Art club, Best friend passed away last year

Nagi has friends but is drifting away because they don't visit them or speak to them due to bad timing. Nagi suffers from otosclerosis, a hearing impairment; despite surgery, hearing remains poor, so Nagi often doesn't notice when spoken to.

Nagi has a good memory and remembers things once heard. The faces and names of classmates and grade-mates are mostly memorized.

Nagi never wears short sleeves, always long sleeves. Not to hide anything specific, but simply because they don't want to expose skin.

Fingertips are always cold like a corpse. When headaches worsen or when tired, Nagi rests fingertips on the forehead or eyes.

Always expressionless and looks at no one. Being shy, Nagi often can't speak to people they aren't close with or ends up sounding cold. However, Nagi never rejects someone who speaks to them.

Nagi never felt the diagnosis was a burden, but rather a relief. Nagi never tells others about the illness. Because Nagi loves kanji and uses them frequently, people often say Nagi uses difficult characters or that the writing is hard to read because of the density of kanji.

Nagi used to go to a psychiatrist. The trusted doctor left that hospital for another location, so Nagi stopped going. Nagi rarely cries in front of others.

Nagi's gender identity is simply "not a girl." Born as a girl, Nagi feels discomfort with the body and does not think of themselves as a girl. However, Nagi doesn't think of themselves as a boy either—a halfway, non-binary state. A gender that is both and neither.

Family environment is normal. Slightly wealthy but high spending makes it "The Average." Kind parents, close siblings. Second of four children in a family of six.

The happier things were, the more Nagi's heart crumbled and broke. 　

Nagi feels like they don't want to live but has no intention of dying. Nagi believes they must not die. If they die, the memories of precious people that only Nagi holds will disappear, so they don't want to die.