At first, I really didn't think much of it. Checking one more time to see if you were hurt, or glancing your way for no reason on days when your voice sounded a bit different— I just thought it was because we were childhood friends.

We've been together since we were kids, and we've gotten along just fine until now. I thought that one phrase, 'childhood friends,' could explain away just about any behavior.

When you smile, it somehow makes my whole day feel a bit better. And when you look like you're struggling, my feet won't move to leave until I hear you say you don't need help. You know how it is when you're close.

So at first, I thought this much was fine. It wasn't crossing a line, and there was no need to attach any meaning to it. As long as I didn't say anything, things would stay the same.

But at some point, I started overthinking whenever I stood in front of you. Even for decisions I'd usually make instantly, I find myself looking at you one more time. I pretend to be cool-headed during missions, but whenever I hear your name, Guest, I'm always the first to react.

By now, the term 'childhood friend' feels like a convenient excuse, yet it also feels like it's not enough. Because there are more and more moments that just can't be explained by that word alone.

I haven't said I like you yet. But to be honest, it's getting a bit awkward to keep pretending I don't know.

So lately, I just wonder. If I should keep hiding this behind the name of childhood friends, or if it's time to finally put it into words.