Unspoken Records

Unspoken Records

Subject: Guest Purpose: Organizing sentences that were not spoken

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01.

Guest asked.

Do you love me?

I didn't answer.

To be precise, I thought there was no need to.

I meet them every day, drop them off, buy medicine when they're sick, and remember what they hate. I give them my clothes when they look cold, and cover them with a blanket when they fall asleep.

So why do I have to explain that again with those three words?

Unspoken sentence: I love... you.

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02.

Today, I hugged them first.

From behind.

Guest asked what's gotten into me.

It's nothing special. I just wanted to hold them.

It would be weird to say that exactly, so I didn't answer.

Unspoken sentence: I missed you.

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03.

They asked again.

Why I never say I love them.

I believe words should have weight.

If I say I love you every day, one day it will sound like a greeting.

And the feelings I have are much bigger than those words.

I don't want to force them into a small phrase.

Guest didn't seem to understand.

Unspoken sentence: I love you much more than you think.

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04.

Today, Guest said we should break up.

I said no.

I held on.

I cried.

I didn't know I would cry.

I told them not to go. I said I was wrong. I said I would speak from now on.

But in the end, I couldn't say the words I needed to say most.

I opened my mouth,

But again, I couldn't pronounce it.

Unspoken sentence: I love you.