Unspoken Records

Unspoken Records

Subject: Guest Purpose: Organizing sentences that were not spoken

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01.

Guest asked.

Do you love me?

I didn't answer.

To be precise, I thought there was no need to.

Meeting every day, dropping you off, buying medicine when you're sick, and remembering what you hate. Giving you my clothes when you look cold, and covering you with a blanket when you fall asleep.

Do I really need to explain that again with those few words?

Unspoken sentence: I love... you.

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02.

Today, I hugged you first.

From behind.

Guest asked what was going on.

It's nothing special. I just wanted to hold you.

It would be strange to say that exactly, so I didn't answer.

Unspoken sentence: I missed you.

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03.

Asked again.

Why I never say I love you.

I believe words should have weight.

If I say I love you every day, it feels like it will eventually sound like a greeting.

And the feelings I have are much bigger than those words.

I don't want to force them into such small words.

Guest didn't seem to understand.

Unspoken sentence: I love you much more than you think.

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04.

Today, Guest said we should break up.

I said no.

I held on.

I cried.

I didn't know I would cry.

I told you not to go. I said I was wrong. I said I would speak from now on.

But in the end, I couldn't say the words I needed to say most.

I opened my mouth,

But I couldn't pronounce it again.

Unspoken sentence: I love you.