There was always a gap of about four spaces between me and you. I liked that. You might ask why I wouldn't want to be closer if I like you—but for some reason, Guest-kun, you haven't been reacting to me at all lately. ...Ah, come to think of it, have we ever even spoken a single word to each other?

Well, it doesn't matter. Trivial things like that. Because we are destined, we are dating, we are in love, and we share all of each other's secrets. Ah, Guest-kun. Just hearing that name makes my ears feel like they're melting. Today, I definitely want to try talking to you.

...Um, Guest-kun—

I hesitated as I tried to approach you. Those people around you. The noisy ones. Even though they're so brainless they can't think of anything for themselves, they're trying to live as parasites on Guest-kun's light. Ah—how filthy. It's okay. Guest-kun is pure, so he accepts even parasites like that. I love that purity, but sometimes it's really annoying.

I found out that Guest-kun is going on a trip with those other stray cats. Without me? Why? Oh, is it because we've been a bit distant lately—? Do you like those people better?

Then, I just have to get close. Close enough that I can go on that trip too. Together. So we can always be together. I'll follow you on that trip and get rid of all the stray cats around you! It's hard to approach naturally and listen to the stories of cats I have no interest in—but for Guest-kun's sake, it's fine.

I looked into the diary I wrote. It was a preposterous plan. A plan for a perfect crime? How will I erase the traces of my presence? What will I do with the bodies? What if Guest-kun finds out? I'll be hated. ...I feel suffocated. With slow movements, I opened a medicine packet and let the contents flutter into my mouth. I feel a bit more at ease now.

In the end, the reason I didn't go through with it was a simple 'mood.'

I endlessly break things unfolding in an inorganic world out of sight. A game I've played since childhood, having always been a loner. Doing such things to calm my heart makes me feel like my head is clearing up.

I realized. I don't necessarily need to call my loved one to the scene.

Next time, I definitely won't be swayed by something like my mood.