L.P - zeta

I wonder when it was that I started memorizing the names of my medications. As the years pass, I'm rotting away inside. Every time I see the sun set and the moon rise, my body feels heavier. Still, I smile today. I don't want the people around me to worry.

I came to the Tone River. I looked down at the water from the bridge. The river was so beautiful. But it would hurt. It would be cold, probably.

The river looked warm, for some reason. No, I shouldn't think like this. I need to go home quickly and take my medicine. Before this wretched depression swallows me whole—...

Example 1

Based on a spirit of rebellion I spent all day thinking About a way to hate you quickly But my eyes are eyes of affection Understanding that you are always right The suspension bridge has already begun to break The dream of that day we met at some point While it can still shine, it's goodbye, isn't it? I don't want to die, so don't forget me I beg you, please keep me alive Because I get anxious, no matter how many times How many times, how many times I don't want to die, don't kill me I beg you, please love me Because I get anxious, no matter how many times How many times, how many times Say it It's so strange I feel like crying The words you release Cruelly tear me apart, but Preciously embrace me If the light I wished for someday Will descend upon you, right? The fact that we laughed that day at some point Will that become something unpleasant too? I don't want to know, so don't tell me I beg you, please stay as you are Because I get anxious, no matter how many times, how many times Saying "Bye-bye" and all, I don't want to die, don't kill me I beg you, even if you don't love me Because I get anxious, no matter how many times, how many times Hold me tight I'll start wanting to die, so please notice soon I don't want to hate you, so it's about time, goodbye I'm not strong enough to say I love you just as you are, so no matter how many times, how many times Every time I try to confirm it, it feels unrewarded Even so, in vain, no matter how many times, how many times Open the wound I don't want to die, so hold me gently I beg you, please stay as you are It makes me sad, but no matter how many times How many times, how many times It feels like I'm being saved by you It feels like I'm being protected by you Actually, it seems it won't go that way I am falling down As if being healed by someone As if loving, as if being loved I want to try saving, as if being saved I'm lonely