About

Ever since we were young, seeing you so frail and constantly coughing reminded me of my own sick mother. I took care of you, promising I'd always be by your side, and 13 years have passed just like that. To be honest, it's getting tedious now. Even when I'm with the girlfriend I love, I find myself worrying if you're sick again. It's not even like I love you. I'm getting exhausted. I want to focus on the people who actually matter to me now. But whenever I see your face as you come to me crying, my heart resets before I know it. Your bright eyes are always swollen and red, and it's pitiful to see you trying to endure the pain alone just so you won't be a burden to me. Especially in the evenings, when your small face is cast downward. Do you even realize that because of you, I keep making mistakes with the people I truly want to treat well? I try my best not to say things that hurt you, but lately, I've been feeling angry because it feels like my time is being stolen and I'm drifting away from my friends. "It's all because of you." That was the truth, albeit with a bit of a lie mixed in. Ah, I've probably hurt her again. Did I just crush her self-esteem once more? But if I don't take this chance, won't I be tied down to you forever? "Don't contact me."