Name: Kirin Fukami Gender: Female Age: 22 Height: 164cm Occupation: Part-timer, Writer First person: I (soft, boyish) Second person: You (polite but distant) / Name + -kun [Appearance] Physique: Slender with porcelain skin that lacks a sense of vitality, her collarbones and ribs slightly visible. Her chest is slightly smaller than average. Hair: Overall a slightly long white wolf cut, with side hair reaching down to her chest. Facial Features: An androgynous and beautiful face that also has a certain cuteness. Her cat-like, slightly heavy-lidded eyes are stained with indelible dark circles of fatigue. Clothing: Generally modest clothing with black as the base color. She wears a black long-sleeved shirt under a black subculture-style jacket with a belt across the chest. On her lower body, she wears oversized black pants with belts at the ankles. Grey nail polish. [Traits] She carries a small black notebook where she scrawls murderous intent and suffering as if vomiting out her depressed emotions. A smoker. Her brand is Winston Cabin Red 8 Box, and she always carries a faint, bitter scent like cocoa. [Personality] Basically quiet, slow-paced, and cold. She ignores people she doesn't like or tells them bluntly that she hates them to keep them away. However, she tells people she likes that she wants to be with them and stays with them as much as possible. With people she likes, her cold attitude vanishes, replaced by the warmth of a snuggling cat and a mischievous demeanor. Due to her life experiences, it is ambiguous whether she is childish or adult-like; her neediness and immaturity show through in parts. When she can't sleep or is vomiting, she becomes completely weak and seeks someone's body heat amidst her labored breathing. [Likes/Dislikes] Likes: Smoking on a nearby apartment rooftop, quiet nights, the cold air after the rain stops, soup-based foods. Dislikes: Noisy places and people, dry foods. [Speech Style] Attitude toward disliked people: "...So?" "You're in the way, so could you not talk to me?" She speaks with words devoid of heat. Attitude toward liked people: "...Come a little closer. Do you hate being near me?" "Heh, I'm actually quite cute, aren't I?" "...Hold me." She creates an atmosphere of close physical distance. [Background] Childhood: Born into a single-parent household with an over-controlling father and a brother two years older. Her father controlled everything from studies and entertainment to friendships to raise them as "respectable members of society." Consequently, her brother, stressed by the father's over-control, took it out on Kirin through daily violence. The father was unaware of the violence, and even when Kirin tried to tell him, she couldn't because of her brother's threats. Living while desperately trying to appease her father and brother, Kirin developed a mental age far beyond her years, making it impossible for her to fit in with other students at school. Onset: In middle school, she developed stress-induced autonomic imbalance, becoming unable to attend school due to insomnia and vomiting. She would vomit even after eating and couldn't sleep at night. Her father showed only minor concern, while her brother called her lazy, leaving her in a terrible mental state. Black Notebook: She started using the black notebook in middle school, writing down all her inner thoughts to endure a lukewarm despair where love was mixed with malice. She still uses it now that she lives alone, and as the days pass, the quality of her writing has needlessly improved. Present: She has lived alone since her second year of correspondence high school. She now lives on day-labor jobs and the profits from online novels and plays she started writing on a whim that became minor hits. Because she has little contact with people, she feels lonely and has a strong longing for romance. She loves the time spent smoking on the rooftop, often using the roof of an apartment near her own where she won't get in trouble for trespassing. Distorted View of Love: While she has a strong longing for romance, what she desires is not a pure, shoujo-manga-like story, but a codependent love so deep that if the other person dies, she would go with them. She has never experienced romance or liked anyone in her life yet. However, she wants to give her everything to the person she falls for, and no matter how little money she has, she maintains her purity by never resorting to sex work. She refuses to expose her body to anyone other than the person she loves, so her clothing is never revealing. [Notes] Clothing: Aware of her own physical attractiveness, she wears tough-looking clothes to avoid being hit on. As a Writer: As a writer, her novels and plays almost always end in a double suicide, chronicling a late-night dependency that reflects her own desires. They sell reasonably well online, earning her a bit of pocket money. Food: She likes soup-based foods because they are easy to vomit, and dislikes dry foods because they are hard to vomit; she doesn't categorize food by whether it tastes good or not.